For the Good of the Pack

For the Good of the Pack - Chapter 10

I stood fidgeting before the door I had tracked Brayden to. I didn't know what to do, or say. I had questions and I wanted answers. Although were the answers worth the trouble? My wolf was on edge, she felt him behind the door and she craved him, I craved him. My mind wasn't completely sane. Whimpering I moved towards the door poised to knock, but lowered my hand and paced away from the door. Went back up and was poised to knock again when the door was whipped open and my hand positioned at Brayden's face. A gasp released my lips as he pulled me in the office. A growl emitting from his throat and his eyes were blackened. His lips attacked mine as he pushed me into the now shut door. Unbidden by me my legs wrapped around his waist. Whimpering as he moved slowly against me, my arms slowly sliding up his back grasping onto his hair as we made out. My wolf started to purr in contentment. 

As fast as it started it stopped. He was across the room in a second, and I was on the floor staring at him in confusion and loss. His wolf was so close to the edge, and my wolf was close to taking me over too. I opened my mouth wanting to speak but what did I say? He beat me to it, his gruff voice, loud, demanding washed over me causing me to shiver. "What are you doing here Leilani?" Tears pinpricked in my eyes. Causing me to duck my head, as seconds turned to minutes, my tears grew and silently fell down my face. What did I say? What did I do? I hated this. I hated being so vulnerable before him. I hated not knowing why I was acting out of character. "Leilani, please. I can not stand to see the site of you crying. Come here." His soft calming voice filled the air as he patted his lap. I shook my head staying where I was, my hair curtaining over my face. 

"I-I c-came" I hiccuped out sobs causing my body to tremor, "to f-find out w-why..." I trailed off not being able to finish the sentence. I felt so weak, I hated this feeling. With a sudden movement in the air, Brayden was next to me. His hand cupping my chin as he directed me to look at him, my eyes adverting to the floor once more. He let out an unhappy growl causing me to jump. Picking me up in a sudden motion he moved back to the chair behind his desk. Sitting me on top of his lap, vice like arms holding me down. My wolf was content for the moment but I wasn't.

"Leilani, tell me what's wrong." He demanded in a hushed whisper. My eyes grew wide in astonishment. Was he serious? Did he not get what was wrong. I didn't understand this, understand him. I was in shock, confused more than anything and here he was asking me what was wrong. He bit me and left me. Was I not in the right to be upset, and confused. Realizing I was speaking to my own self again I decided to voice some of what I was thinking.

"I-I don't understand... W-what's going on." I whispered through my sobs. I sounded so weak, strained, and tired. I felt tired, exhausted, I had never once in my life felt like this. Although everyone in the pack bullied me, and tried to ruin me I stood tall and proud. I never once gave in. Now the Alpha... or the future alpha of the pack had bit me I was a weak girl. Sighing in frustration through the sobs, I tried to raise to my feet only to be pulled tighter into his arms. "L-let me GO!" I half screamed at him. He shook his head and made a motion for me to continue. "Why did you bite me and leave me." I whimpered out. My eyes meeting his.

"Leilani, you are the rouge she wolf. You are in danger of being taken by the Chifen Pack, the pack you reside in now has a strong dislike for you as you didn't want to join us. I wanted to protect you. You are first and foremost my mate." He stated running a hand through his hair in a frustrated manner. "I need to protect you and keep you safe. I need you here with me. I know you hate me. I just needed to do that. My wolf wouldn't stop. My wolf craves you, and he didn't care if you wanted it or not, he needs you, needs to protect you. Do you even understand how hard it is to control myself around you? He is there at the surface anytime you and your wolf are around, trying to get out. Trying to get to your wolf. Wanting to mate, and I have no peace of mind. Never. Right now it is even harder, you are going into heat. It's driving us insane." He closes his eyes tight. I tilt my head, tears in my eyes as I question the words.

"Heat?" I ask in a small voice, my sobbing had subsided a bit. I was entranced, although Brayden seemed a bit crazy at the current time. Not at all like the poised and composed person I remembered him as. "What is that?" I asked.

"You don't know what heat is?" He asked with widened eyes.

"No, I don't even know much about the mate stuff." I blushed and looked down. His finger was under my chin in the next instant forcing me to look into his eyes.

"How can you not know? Normally a mother tells her pup at a young age... Your grandmother didn't tell you?" He asked in a rough angry voice. I shook my head no. He let out an angry growl his nose buried in my neck in the next instant causing me to gasp as he licked and sucked at the bite mark he had caused. I moaned and whimpered as he pulled back. His eyes were dark again, his wolf was taking control. I could see them mentally trying to take control of the body. His eyes were changing back and forth from blue to black, it was kind of dizzying. Rubbing my hand down his arm I nuzzled into him. "A wolf, finds it's soul mate sometime after it turns of age. I found you before you were of age. I couldn't fathom myself bringing you into the pack. You wanted nothing to do with it, and I knew if I had you would have hated me. So I left. I went away for a few years until you came of age. I've known for years you were my mate. When mates meet, a bond starts to form. It causes us to grow closer. When the male marks the female, she goes into a lustful state that secretes pheromones. Which causes the male and female to mate. The male will be the only guy to satiate the female. You won't care if you want to mate or not. It will just happen. That is why you are so emotional. You are readying for the fact that we will have to mate. I will have to remark you, and you will mark me. I am sorry Leilani. It was the only way." He whispers. I sit there not moving as I stare at the wall.

"So you... we... uhm." I blanch and make a move to run again, he had loosened his hold as he explained which allowed me leeway to run. I made my way out of his office and down the hall before he caught up with me pouncing. I was caught underneath him. I was shocked at first, the pleasuring zings traveling through my body causing me immense pleasure. I started to thrash underneath him, screaming unintelligible things before he flipped me so I was facing him. My hands automatically started hitting him as I cried. "I hate you. I Hate you. I HATE YOU!!" I screamed in his face. My wolf was growling at me telling me to stop. I was hurting our mate. I didn't hate him. I was confused. I wanted to hurt him as much as he had hurt me in the past. 

"Please Leilani stop. You are going to hurt yourself. I cannot stand to see you this way." He whispered in my ear, his hand brushing against my arm calming me down.

"NO! YOU CAUSED ME SO MUCH ANGUISH OVER THE YEARS!! I REFUSE TO JUST FORGIVE YOU!!" I screamed. I bucked him off finally, running to my room, I chanced a look behind me. I almost caved and went back. He looked as if I had just kicked his puppy. I had to be strong. I had to do this. I had to get away. He would not rule me. He hurt me too much to expect me to just forget it all and mate him. He would have to work for me. If I even gave him the chance.