No matter how hard I try to run away from you
I promised myself I'd get over you
The sun was made of empty broken promises
But even after the sun went down my lips could still feel the pressure of your hips
Beautiful boys with trillion dollars smiles
Can not buy back the nights i waited outside
I would have waited days for you
But the sun would not rise
How i curse this house and everyone in it
Calling me a boyfriend when you knew i was your enemy
Dressed up in lingerie as one whole being
Baby my body is an army
Vices turned to vagueness turned to fatigue turned to failure
Jealousy rain down on me like blood on your hands
I want to feel as alive as I did when I first kissed you
You were always making such sudden moves
But tell me again how much you like me
Or did you just love my body as it tried to kill me
It was doing your job for you
You said you didn't want to
Let me fall onto the stone
Deep into the dark unknown
Your sweatshirt keeps me warm in the cold
But my heart's still made of stone
It falls like rain water from the lake near the park
The water like thick period blood
Call me fake, call me woman, call me slave
I'll be your mistress just to feel your kisses
Call me your boyfriend as my blood pours throughout you
Let it fall on you like the storm outside of the hospital room
Nothing compares to the pain you put me through
Was the cold side of my hospital bed not enough for you
