Proud (A Lesbian Love Story)

Order Arises

Ashley's POV:

  My eyes shot open at the sound of my alarm, the ring buried uncomfortably into my ears. Gosh I hated this sound, it hurt my mind that craved for dreaming and thinking in a relaxedly calm state. So I reached for my cell phone to turn it off, finally, the silence.

  I had gotten out of bed, I was supposed to be a new student at this school today, and I really wasn't excited about it. I wanted to blend in and not be noticed nor be the center of attention. But being new means people are going to be curious and want to talk to me, great. These worrious thoughts continue to seize my mind, my stomache churning at this discomfort I am not looking forward to. And with my long hair? Guys are going to be attracted to me, and that would make me even more uncomfortable. I like girls, and my desperation for others to know that is resisted due to my shyness.

Well, I'm kind of screwed. Maybe the dream I had last night was foreshadowing my fears? Maybe I'd have to deal with a guy liking me at this new school, which is something I don't want, but things like that do happen. It might, but to avoid any confrontation like that, I plan on being the quiet kid again and not expressing myself at all. That is much more comfortable, energizing and relieving than dealing with people. I hope to find a really cute girl I could at least attempt to get close with though, maybe the girl from my dreams would be at this school? Oh dear I hope, so much I'm filled with excitement already.

  I didn't care for changing much of my clothes, but I did, despite not wanting to be noticed, want to make a self-impression dressed in the clothing I like and feel to wear. So I've slipped on a regular black t-shirt and a rock-designed black hoodie that isn't too noisy but is creatively edgy, just to my liking. I slipped on some black under-leggings for I planned to wear my black ripped-jeans over them. I had no desire to show that much skin, plus, this felt preferably more comfortable.

  Leaving my room with my phone in hand, earphones slipped in my ears to play some of my favorite morning-meditation music to fell relaxed yet energized and feeling free of school-stress. I began to brew some coffee into a large coffee cup I saved from a Starbucks run, slipped on my pure-black converse, and sat there for a while.

  It was no near time to leave yet, and I did not feel the need for any make-up at all for today. My eyes were already gothened due to the eyeliner and mascara I keep wearing almost every day. Oh I felt so great to feel like a vampire in this way, the style felt so authentic to me, I attuned quite proudly to my appearance.

  My cat had rubbed against me, welcoming me a hello. I felt so touched in the heart at this adorable creature and returned the love, purring with it as I did. This heart-lurching connection I had with my cat reminded me of this attractive dream girl, who I feel desired to meet. I became hopeful to meet her today, but also didn't want to get my hopes up too high for that. Just thinking about her slightly less-curly hair than mine, cleanly of the moon's gleam. Her eyes and skin, both matching mine, glowed of a garden of white roses, dazed with moon-lit white clouds that glowed with a similar light as the moon. Through her eyes I see visions of beauty, where she is so calm and peaceful, she's like a fairy. Where I'm so worried and anxious all of the time, my thoughts darken quickly and I don't feel as much peace as she seems to.

  Gosh I feel so attracted to her being. I want to caress her and hold her against me, pet her and attuned our energies. I want to feel her close to me, so close that our atoms connect. She's beautiful, and I'm only darkened of her light. I want her, but will she even be at this school today? Oh jeez I dearly hope so.

  I took my rim-filled cup of coffee, topped it's lid, turned off the coffee-maker, grabbed my backpack, grabbed a small nutrition bar for breakfast, and left after the door. I wasn't excited about school, but I hoped to see this girl, or at least think of her all day to ease all of the loud, stressful, and worrisome events.

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Noralee's POV:

  My alarm sounded me awake, despite it's music being quite beautiful, it's repetitive chorus knocked my eyes out of my dream. I stretched out of my covers, yawning due to my exhaustion and craving for more sleep. But I knew I was going to be late for school if I ended up oversleeping, so I willed myself out of bed and selected my outfit for today. This routine felt so usual, but today itself felt new and special. I didn't know what was coming, but images and my hope for to see that adorable girl from my dreams again surged into my mind, causing my cheeks to flush with heat and redden of color. I smiled in unison with my blushing, the corners of my mouth cannot relieve from my cheeks, thinking so vividly about this girl. She was admireable and lovely, as I hoped that I would encounter her soon enough.

  I sighed relaxively, tuning into a calmer state as I slipped on a regular black t-shirt and an oversized masculine black flannel with the pattern being a blend of greys and whites, painting with the excessive black quite nicely. I slipped on my goth choker I normally use for cosplays, a pair of black skinny-jeans that are formal with an edgy mark, blending in well with my attire. My shoes that I usually keep in my room are just regular black converse with white laces, matching well with today's style. I twirled a little around my room, proud of my own outfit despite not being very confident with myself. A smile relaxed into a happily-normal expression, just as I slipped on and adjusted my black beanie over my black hair. Thoughts of this girl, still left me getting ready with a heartbeat filled with excitement and love.

  I brewed some water for my morning cup of green tea, setting out the cinnamon and honey I like to mix in with it. My mind was busy in an orderly manner, hypnotized in a relaxive-rush as thoughts of this girl drowned my worries for school today. I'm usually the quiet kid in my school, and people understand that I prefer to not talk much at all, and just be reserved and working alone, which is comforting and energizing to me. I enjoy being by myself, and feel attuned with my own spirit more strongly and fulfillingly as I introspect and analyze into my inner world alone. Oh how refreshing.

  But I wasn't entire focused on those deep thoughts at the moment, for that girl from my dreams engraved sharply into my mind, but with all of these fantasies with her I've created, it all felt so comfortable. An image of her and I kissing under the moonlight, on an abandoned bench and surrounded by nature leaped my heart with joy as I took in the scene of this fantasy deeply and vividly, as if I'm living the story of that world. I really wanted that, I want her.

  I had finished my relaxing yet energizing cup of green tea just as I was grabbing a fruit for a quick breakfast and headed out the door with a purse-like black backpack slung over my shoulders. I felt excited, hopeful, happy... Since I had a feeling that today would be unusual but quite amazing in experience. Maybe I'll encounter that girl? Maybe I will ace my tests today? Who knew? But I was excited for this welcomely wonderful change.

Hello again everyone! I hope you're all doing well wherever you are in this world, and I hope you enjoyed this story so far! I appreciate you reading this chapter, and have a wonderful day/night! Thank you!
~ Riøt (Author)