"I can't do this anymore," I scream while the pills sit patiently in my hand,just waiting for me to give in and swallow them. "Please,baby stop. Let me help you," Ashton begs while slumping against the other side of the door. "Just please," he says breathlessly.
I can tell he's crying and I pause with my hand half way to my mouth while my jaw hangs open. I quickly gulp and look at the door : should I? All I need to know is will it get better? Will all this pain gradually go away because if not I might as well end it now. I hear his sigh and snap back into reality. I look down at my hand which is know wet from all the tears and sweat, should I?
The time is ticking along to my heartbeat. Fast.
I pull my legs from beneath me and heave a sigh out while placing the pills one by one back into the tub, flush the razors down the toilet and turn off the bath then unlock the door. I stand there waiting for Ashton to realize that i've stopped and burst through the door.
But he doesn't.
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Existence/ONHOLD
FanfictionMy Existence means nothing to me but when he entered my life, I realized that I need to live my life to the fullest as death surrounds us.
