hello!, I hope you enjoy this new fan fiction and it will start sad but it will get better I promise anyways hope you enjoy💓x
dianne's PoV-
I wake up in a cold bed empty like I want it to max my boyfriend of 11months he is very abusive I've tried to run away on many occasions but failing and being brutally batterd by him I won't to leave but I just can't....
He has made me get depression and suicidal thoughts I tried last year when he made me so low in myself esteem he stopped me though thinking that he is all I need i believed him for a while but now I don't I'm broken.....
I self harm on the daily and I think I have a mental health disorder but I don't know what to do should I go to the doctors should I not.....
joes PoV-
I wake up groggy and tired I was editing very late last night and I don't know when i went to sleep last night I walk downstairs after a shower and make some pancakes Byron is with his girlfriend so I'm alone I will always be alone in my life who wants a skinny, ugly, self harming you tuber honestly I just broke up with my girlfriend of 10 months tamilia at first she was amazing we were a 'power couple' as some people would say....
She was so rude and sometimes abusive, she always wanted sex which I didn't want and one night....
I can't talk about that night it embarrasses me and haunts me to this day she has got be depression and low self esteem I now have a eating disorder Because of her I wish I never because it kills me, I can't even leave the house most days youtube is my life I couldn't think being without it's like my space where I can be myself and not think of the consequences I sit on my computer editing when I get a email....
Hello mr sugg,
We have looked through the files and we saw you if you would like to could you join us for strictly come dancing 2018 please reply if your interested
from the strictly casting team x
I instantly reply back....
Hello,
I'd love to join strictly this year something different for me thank you for the invitation
from mr sugg x
I start to get a panic attack straight after eventually getting my breathing normal and calming my nerves I open the email they sent....
That's brilliant!
you will come on Friday the 27th August to see the professionals at 10am please you must attend don't be late!
From strictly casting team x
I skim through social media looking up the professionals one catches my eye the most
Dianne Claire Buswell
29 professional on strictly come dancing
2017-onwards
She was so beautiful with that Lucius red hair and that beautiful smile I bet she's taken knowing my luck...
and yes she is for fucks sake!
I can't wait to meet her through...
I look through my dm's and see mostly mentions but some where something like this....
Manslag
Fat
Ugly
Kys
Slice those wrists
Someone likes your YouTube
Boring
Anorexic cunt
Twat
Hope you kys
Dead man
All those words hurt me I need to go....
I walk upstairs slowly go to the bathroom and grab my razor blades from the cupboard and slide down to the floor....
Worthless
Fat
Ugly
Stupid
Alone
Depression
Dead
Hate myself
Die
All those words were true I can't hide if anymore I'm broken and dead inside.....
dianne's PoV-
ABUSE WARNING
"Hey bitch give me some loving" he growled
"No" I mumbled
"YOU WILL LOVE ME" he shouts smacking me
"NO MAX I WILL NOT IVE HAD ENOUGH OF YOUR SHIT" I shout running to the bathroom locking it behind me
"OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR NOW" he shouts louder
I stay silent and I grab my razor blades....
Fat
Ugly
Shit
Bitch
Slag
biggest slag of the town
Alone
I slowly clean my arms stinging with pain a slide down to the floor hearing max walk alway I wait an hour until I hear I door slam I unlocked the door and creep into the kitchen to a note on the top....
Hello bitch I'm going to get drunk I hope your ready
Max your one and only ;)
I was sick to my stomach i don't like when he's drunk he scares me.....
Someone help me.....
Holla, I hope you enjoyed this entry chapter I know depressing right I promise it will get better when Dianne meets joe anyhow I'd like to shout out to Youtubers-joanne she has been the bestest friend you could ever have honestly She's amazing at what she does in her fan fiction better thank her she gave me the confidence to make this fan fiction love you so much my angel💗x
have a wonderful day everyone! X
Bec x
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I'll fight for her✨x
Novela Juvenil'I'll fight for her' One girl strictly fired up and ready for a new series but scared to find her partner if he's a young hot lad will come on this series her boyfriend max of two years hates her only is with her for the fame he abuses her and makes...
