I LOVE YOU (BTS JUNGKOOK)

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YOU
"I like you." I confessed.

He snapped and turned to look at me. 

He looked at me, blankly.

"Can i be honest? I don't feel anything when i see you." It felt like someone stabbed my heart a thousand times.

"I know." I hung my head low.

"I'm sorry. I can't accept your feelings." He shook his head.

"Don't you know that i have a girlfriend?"

He expressed his disappointment against me.

I broke the deal. He probably hates me so much right now.

"You should move on from me. Probably what you feel for me isn't real anyway."

My heart shattered immediately as he said that.

He doubts my feelings.

Knowing that the one you love, doubts your feelings is just too much.

Being in an arranged marriage was already a hard reality for me, but I didn't know I would also suffer having one sided love for a guy.

He noticed I've been blanking out. Honestly, I want to prevent myself from crying in front of him.

"I'm going out." His face full of hatred as he slammed the front door.

Slowly, tears rolled down my cheeks.

Why. Why must I be the one suffering?

Out of billions of people in this world, why must I go through this painful heartbreak?

HIM
I hated it.

I hated the idea that she loved me.

She's fully aware that I'm in a relationship with another girl. How did she come up with the idea of directly confessing to me?

I went to Jina's house.

I scanned my thumb on the lock and the door opened.

"Babe why are you here?" She was sitting on her big ass couch.

I throw myself on the couch as she looked at me.

I closed my eyes with my right arm. Slowly feeling the headache from processing all that happened 20 minutes ago.

"Did something happened?" She crouched beside the couch removing my right arm gently.

I looked at her and sit up.

She sat beside me as she looked at me.

"She.. she confessed to me." I told her.

"Who?" She asked in confusion.

I looked at her dumbfounded.

"My wife."

She sat with a poker face.

"Don't you love her?" She asked.

I snapped and looked at her.

"What are you talking about. I only love you." I took her right hand and intertwined our fingers.

"Are you sure? You've been living with her for almost one year."

She doubted me.

"No" I said sternly.

"Well then it's not that difficult." She mumbled.

"What?" I didn't her what she said.

"Divorce her. It's that easy."

I looked at her, wide eyed.

"You promised to get married with me Jungkook. It's been our promise since we were kids."

I looked at her. Why did my heart fall at the topic of divorce?

I kept quiet and slowly let go of her hand and head back home.

"Think about it Jungkook."

She whispered and left a peck on my right cheek.

I drove back home.

Should I? Should I get a divorce with her? It wasn't our choice to get married anyway.

She would be able to move on right?

I reached the front door and turned the door handle.

YOU
As soon as I heard the sound of someone opening the door, I wiped my tears as fast as I can making sure to not leave any hints.

He sat beside me leaving a gap between us.

"I want you to hear my explanation."

I told him, making sure that my voice didn't show that I've cried for a straight 40 minutes.

He nodded giving me the cue.

"I didn't want to fall in love with you. I swear I didn't. I strictly wanted to follow our deal. Marriage with no real feelings. But after all, who can control feelings. It came suddenly. I figured out that it was better for you to know. I didn't mean to make things awkward between us. I just want you to be aware of my feelings because honestly, keeping it to myself is hurtful enough."

I swear I didn't want to go this far for an explanation but somehow those words jump straight out of my mouth.