I LOVE YOU (BTS JUNGKOOK)

twelve

HIM
I finally arrived back in Seoul around 2:30am. I walked Jina to her car that her chauffeur drove to pick her up.

She turned to me.

"Remember my words alright. Be the man that i fell in love with since i was a kid. Don't disappoint her."

She gave me words of advice before driving away.

I stood outside the train station. Getting myself together.

From now on you're alone, Jungkook.

It's up to you whether things will go smoothly or badly.

I sighed and walked to my car that i parked in the railway station carpark.

Never knew i would be back in Seoul this fast.

I drove back to our house and saw the lights was on. She's already back?

I smiled, slightly anticipating to see her.

I unlocked the door and saw the tv playing while there she is on the couch sleeping peacefully.

I walked towards her and turned the tv off.

I get a blanket from the clean laundry and covered her with it.

'I'll try to make things right. I promise.'

I said to myself as i looked down at her.

I moved a strand of hair that was covering her face and tucked it behind her ear.

I went to my room and washed up. Drifting to sleep as soon as i land on the bed.

I woke up the next afternoon, feeling feverish but i just ignored it and went downstairs to check on her.

I saw her in the kitchen, cooking.

I sighed in relief looking at her.

I went back into my room and showered.

HER
I cooked army stew for him while waiting for him to wake up.

After i scooped the stew and rice into the respective bowls, i made a mental note to check on him.

Right after i served the dishes on the table, i saw him coming down the stairs.

He looked as princely and good-looking as he'll ever be, even with just a simple black sweatpants and a black sweater.

I blushed at how cute he looks with his hood up.

He looked at me and i broke the eye contact, heart hammering rapidly against my ribcage.

"I cooked for you. E-eat up."

I stuttered when he came nearer.

"Thanks."

He gave me a small smile, making him look angelic.

I was about to walk away when called me, "Eat with me".

My heart stopped and i turned around to walk back to the kitchen, scooping rice into a bowl and pulled out a chair in front of him.

"Eat up."

He pushed the bowl of stew towards me.

I looked at him as he digged in into his food, his cheek moving cutely as he chewed on his food.

He suddenly looked up at me and i slightly jumped, my eyes lowered looking at the bowl of stew as i scooped it out.

I was caught in action and i feel like burying myself deep into the ground.

I felt so confused everytime my heart beats at everything he does.

He can be plain cold and super kind the next second.

I tried composing myself in front of him, countless of times so he won't know how much my heart yearns for his love.

I looked at my food the whole time, trying to not look at him.

I tried to put on a blank face so that he knew i am still trying to move on from him.

"Can we talk after we eat?"

He carefully asked me, his big round eyes pleading.

I nodded while looking at my food.

"Thanks." He whispered.

I just nod at him and stood up to wash my bowl.

He was about to stand up too but i took his bowl away and washed it together with mine.

I felt his presence lingering at the dining table for a while but soon after he walked away and sat on the couch, waiting for me.

I washed all the dishes and wiped the table, washing my hands clean immediately after that. I tried to buy time while wiping my hands because i was certainly not ready for him to say in my face that he doesn't need me in his life anymore.

Every step i took to the couch, my heart dropped lower everytime.

I sat beside him, quite a big gap between us.

"Can i start?" He asked.

I nodded.

"First of all, i knew i created a big mess. I knew that i ruined your time in Busan by appearing with my now ex-gf."

He explained, while my eyes widened.

'Ex. What did he mean.'

My eyes glue to the ground as he kept quiet.

"Continue."

I instructed him.

"I'm sorry that i rejected you, i ignored you and for being such an awful husband. I don't know how to say this but.. i want to say let's-"

I squeezed my already watery eyes.

'Divorce.'

I ended his sentence in my mind.