SAVE ME

Why

To all the people that have read my story, thank you.. I don't care if less than 5 people have read it, I'm just glad somebody has, but I'm sorry for the delay I've had no inspiration to write and I didn't want to until I got inspiration to because I didn't want the chapters to seem forced and then me look back on them and hate them because of how shitty they were, anyway we're gonna get back to it now😂 thank you, enjoy

I woke up the next morning with a throbbing headache and warm arms wrapped around my waist making me unable to move, I looked over my shoulder to see jah still asleep
I'm never doing that shit again.. I did not like the way it made me feel at all
Yea it was fun for a little while but after a while I wanted to be back in complete control of myself and I couldn't get it so,
"Jah.."
He flinched slightly at my words "hmm?"
I grabbed his forearms trying to move them
"I need to get up"
He shook his head and buried it into my chest
"..noooo.." I sighed and attempted to move again "jah were already late for school, and I have a migraine.. let me go please"
He groaned and then slowly let go of me, as I stood up he rolled on to his back and rubbed his eyes
"Do we have to go to school?" I thought for a moment and then shrugged "nah"
He smiled as I walked out of the room
I made my way to the bathroom to get medicine to for my migraine
After I took the medicine I decided to take a shower to get the stench off of me
10 minutes later..
I walked out of the bathroom and saw jahseh standing at the counter eating cereal, he wasn't facing me and he was on his phone so I quietly ran up behind him and jumped on his back I took a spoon full of his cereal and shoved it in my mouth
He chuckled and I quickly kissed him on the cheek the screen of his phone lit up so I looked down at it out of curiosity

Geneva
Babyyy come over tonight, I'm craving you😭

I jumped off his back and backed away from him slightly
"Who the fuck is that!?" My voice was shaky from the mix of emotions I felt in my chest
He turned to face me and tried to walk over to me I quickly backed away slightly more
I pointed to his phone and asked again
"Jahseh, who the fuck is that!?"
He shook his head and looked at me again
"That's Geneva shes-"
I cut him off out of sheer anger
"She's what jahseh? Your fucking side hoe, I'm sorry but I don't do shit like that, It's either only me or not me at all!"
He shook his head again but more aggressively
"No! Lay shes my ex!"
I raised my eyebrow "so you still fuck your ex?"
He rubbed his face out of frustration "no lay, I don't even answer to her you can check our whole conversation, and if I did answer her it was me telling her to leave me alone"
He turned around to grab his phone he handed it to me I hesitated not wanting to see what I might
I unlocked it and went to there conversation

Geneva
Jahseh! Answer me baby

Jah I know you still want me

I didn't mean to hurt you baby.. I'm sorry🙁

Jahseh fucking answer me, stop being a bitch

Jahseh
                Geneva leave me the fuck alone you ruined your chance

Geneva
Jah I didn't mean to cheat on you, it was and accident! I promise

I won't do it again I'm sorry

Please just come over tonight I miss you🙁

Babyyy come over tonight, I'm craving you😭
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I stood there in silence a million things running through my head... why the fuck would I assume he would do something like that to me, im a idiot, now he's gonna think I don't trust him.... I'm such a fucking idiot, he's shown me nothing but love.. and I just threw it in his face,
My eyes began to water as tears fell onto his phone screen from me trying to avoid his eyes
He gently grabbed the phone out of my hand and sat it on the counter behind me, he pulled me into a hug
"I'm so fucking sorry jah...I-I sho-shouldn't have a-assumed you would d-do something like that.."
I broke down burying my face into his chest and gripping onto him as if I let go he would leave and disappear
"Shhh, it's ok baby.." he began to stroke my hair I shook my head
"No it's not.. I'm supposed to trust you.. not try to find a way to hurt us, I'm supposed to believe you, not scream at you"
He shook his head as he pulled me closer to him
"It's not your fault.. I would've thought the same thing- i don't blame you for how you reacted, you've been hurt a lot and it's not fair to you, but you have to believe that I wouldn't do that to you"
I nodded my head he grabbed my face and moved it away from his chest, he pulled my face into his and began to kiss me, I pulled away as I question ran through my mind
"She cheated on you?"
He nodded lightly as a saddened look grew on his face
"I really loved her.. at one point, I would've died for her... but she clearly didnt feel the same"
My face saddened as well at the genuine look of hurt on his
"She's a fucking idiot.."  he took a deep breath
"Yea, but she was all I had at one point, and that's why I fell in so deep with her" I nodded wanting him to continue
"My mom, wasn't.. there so I had nobody, I didn't have money or a house but I had her and she offered for me to move in with her.. and I did our relationship got more intense and I genuinely loved her with my everything, and I think a part of me still does, but the major part of me hates her for what she did"
I raised my eyebrow
"One day I saw something on her phone and looked into it, and apparently she had been cheating on me for weeks, my heart was completely shattered- no not even just my heart, my whole soul.. I was beyond hurt so I asked her about it, and she wouldn't admit it at first but finally I managed to get the truth out of her, she tried to blame it on the dude but.. I knew deep inside she hurt me purposely and she wasn't sorry for what she did she was sorry she got caught"
His eyes began to tear lightly, I could tell he was still hurt so I pulled him into a hug and then pulled away so he could continue
"I went after the dude.. and I was gonna kill him, luckily stokeley got to me before I got to him..because I would be in prison right now if he didn't, after about a week of pure depression and loneliness and lashing out, pushing everyone out of my life, coolie and stokeley, trunks and all the boys decided to come to my house and help me move on, because.. being completely honest.. the state I was in was not healthy at all" he took a deep breath trying to calm himself
"They somehow got me to go back to school, but I refused to go to back to my old school because of her, so I came to your school, thank god I did.. because I don't know what I would be doing with myself right now if it wasn't for you..I might be dead"
He laughed uncomfortably
I grabbed his face to make him look at me, "don't say that"
He shrugged "it's true though, I don't think you understand this, not only do I love you.. I fucking need you.. and that scares me because I don't wanna be hurt and let down again"
I shook my head
"I would never do that to you jahseh, I swear on that.. I love you so fucking much and I couldn't even imagine hurting you, because you already know.. I know what it feels like to be let down by the person who promised you not too"
He nodded his head and pulled me into a hug
"But I promise you jah I love you, and I swear I won't let you down"
A few hours later...
We were sitting in the living room on the couch and my phone began to ring
I reached over to pick it up, it was a random number but I decided to answer it
"Laylin?"
It was a very familiar voice, I couldn't really remember who it was though
"Who is this?"
"Your mom"