Live and Love the Life!

Painful Life

From the moment I was born,

I thought I have already known.

As I realize and mourn,

now my life is torn.

Endless agony that's always ahead,

it did not even had a chance to end,

feeling like i'm already dead,

feeling like now i'm wasted.

As there are many times I commit suicide,

there is just things I can't decide,

a decision I can't make in a toss of a dice,

feeling the pain roaming inside.

To the times I think that now I should be dead,

not living in this world that heaven have made,

dreams and hopes so long i've waited,

that maybe thrown out and never existed.

As I looked to myself in the mirror,

all I can see is pain and sorrow,

but I hold and fight the tear,

and found a new hope that's near.

I gently take it and hope again,

and wish that this pain will end.

As now I see a new face within,

a face so happy and tend.

Turning back to my painful life

seeing challenges I always face

now have been gone to wasted,

still remaining in my heart as an ache.

And now I see a new me,

having my own life and own family.

My children growing as I see,

not letting them feel the pain in me.