Honest

Phoenix rising

     I was laying in the bed with Demi when I heard my phone vibrate. No we didn't have sex but we stayed up all night talking about our upbringjng. Come to find out he spent most of his childhood in a group home, he was in and out of juvie as a teenager and was adopted by Shelby's step mother at 14. Now 21 he was studying to be lawyer where he wanted to represent at risk youth like himself. "I would have never thought you were gay."
     "I'm not" he shook it off.  My face frowned.
     "What do you mean."
     "I mean I'm not anything I just do what makes me happy. I've actually never been with a guy but you just caught my attention." He said.
     I thought for a second.
     "I know what you're doing, you remind me so much of myself. You're trying to find fault in my statement. I used to do the same thing it's just I learned to see the positives in a situation rather the negatives." It made sense. "Your honesty is rare. How you're able to read people to filth" he laughed.
    I wanted to react but with him it's not that simple. So I studied him and let my silence hint for him to continue.
    "But I just see you have so much more to offer than just putting people in their place."
    "Like what?"
     Before he could respond my phone vibrated again. Growing frustrated with the constant interruptions I decided to see what it was about. It was a picture of Stephens dick with a text that followed 'he misses you'. Demi caught a glance but remained quiet. "I don't-"
     "You don't have to explain Honest." He cut me off. But for some reason I felt the need to.
     "He was honestly someone I was messing around with and I-"
      "Honest you don't have to explain. We're not in a relationship." He said with a reassuring smile. But for some reason even the sincerity behind his words and the understanding, his words cut deep.
       I went silent, trying my best to disguise my feelings. He took the phone out my hands and put it face down. "Tell me what's on your mind." He said kissing the side of my neck.
      I sat up this vulnerability was too much, I needed to get away. "Take me home."
     He sat up obviously confused but instead of reacting he studied me. His eyes never leaving me I found myself growing angry. But my anger couldn't be directed at no one but myself.  "You wanted to stop and get something to eat on the way home?"
      I ignored his question. "I'll be waiting in the living room." I said as I grabbed my shoes.
     The ride home was quiet. Demi tried to strike up a conversation but when I didn't respond he caught the hint and just turned up the music. Before we could say our goodbyes I left.
      "Yo Honest" Jacoby said with enthusiasm lacing his voice.
       "No, Coby" I said walking right pass him to my room. I wasn't soft, weak.... or was I?

...

  I was walking to admissions to change my schedule. I needed to get a break from Demi. I wanted to make sure I didn't run into him even in the hallways . "Wassup faggot" Stephen said with his pound puppy of a girlfriend atttatched to his hip and Professor James standing next to him.
     Normally I would I have something smart to say but I have bigger problems. So I kept walking barely stealing a glance at them. I made it to the double doors that lead to admissions and noticed they were closed. "Fuck!" I screamed a bit louder than I would have liked.
    I made my way back through the hall with a million things running through
My mind. I was in my own little world that I hadn't even noticed Stephens foot sneaking behind my step tripping me and make me fall in front of everybody causing the entire hallway to erupt in laughter. Normally I wouldn't care but when I spotted Demi steal a glance at me on the floor I realized something. I realized just who the fuck I was. I'm Honest the coldest motherfucker you'll ever meet.
      A smile crept on my face as I starred at Stephen, my eyes thanking him for giving me a target to take my anger out. See a Phoenix rises from ashes just as I was about to rise to reign hell on Stephens entire existence. "My bad Stephen I didn't see your foot right there." A smile that would seem so sincere was so menacing. "I should have watched whose toes I step on... clumsy me."
    "Stephen you gotta be careful, you're so busy clowning around with nobodies you're not focused on what's important. Me and your mother didn't send you to school..." Professor James started but I tuned him out. I learned all that I needed to know. Professor James was Stephens father.
    Demi approached and asked if I was okay but I smiled not bothering to respond. I made my way to my apartment with fire in my eyes. Stephen just made the top of my hit list.