I forced myself to smile
To stop the tears from running
Down my checks.
I bit my lip ,
Hard until
I feel the blood in my mouth
And I'm not sure if I can control myself but maybe I can
My smile is fading
And it looks like the fake one it really is.
I tear a piece of tape,
And dig my fingers into my pen.
And draw a big, purple smile on the tape.
I place the tape over my mouth.
I'm smiling... everything's "okay" now
I still taste blood in my mouth..
The purple smile looks more real than my smile.
You saw the smile.
Your eyes go blank.
Almost as blank
As mine
Are
(Not was) but
ARE.
You peel the "smile" off my face
Put your hands on my cheeks.
"Your smile is so much more beautiful"
