I picked the wrong thing to wear the first day you came over. I didn't get dressed all nice and I didn't look like i just slept outside for days. My hair was straightened. I had makeup on from earlier that day. I waited for you outside. Airing in a gray tshirt with an eagle on it and a pair of jeans that ive been able to fit into since the beginning of 8th grade. The year things finally picked up between us... That's besides the point though. I seen you walking up after I had been waiting outside foe 10 minutes. You messaged me that you were getting off the bus at that second and then i seen you. You had a grey shirt with white basketball shorts, no hat this time. This is the day you meet my mom. This is the day you meet my 3 sisters my cousin and my youngest brother. He doesnt like anyone but he instantly liked you. I instantly fell in love granted I've had strong feeling for you for years but this was different. My brother who made my world brighter the day he was born liked you and it meant something to me. I hope it meant something to you. It must have because you guys sat there the entire time playing games on your phone. I couldn't stop smiling I was shy and didnt know how to act but I talked and you called me beautiful. How was I supposed to take the comment never in my life had I ever been called beautiful. I knew you were going to change me whether the change was good or not. I knew right then and there I needed you in my life. I just with you thought the same. We talked about a lot that night. Our first night of actually being together after dating for like 4 days. The first night you spent the night and the first night I felt safe in a really long time. You once told me I was your safe place.... Well you are mine... You were mine...for right now we are strangers until we are ready again. Hopefully its soon because I need you. We fell asleep after talking until 3 a.m. you told me to go to sleep at 1 a.m. but I was enjoying your company. My mom was supposed to take you home but she got drunk and fell asleep because she couldnt handle the fact that i had a boyfriend granted you werent my first boyfriend but she knew what you meant to me and she wasnt ready to see me get hurt or fall in love like I did. I was ready to risk it all for you. So you spent the night. We slept right next to each other and you hugged me tight while I was "asleep" and kissed my forehead. I head you say something but ill keep that to myself I want a little piece of you left at least the part you didn't know I knew about. I just knew you cared after what you said. That night meant everything to me but I knew we would have more time to make memories. Maybe not forever but enough time. Maybe that's what I wished. Even if we added up all the one mores we could possibly with for they would last a lifetime but I don't think that's what was destined to happen for us maybe if we... Or just I wished hard enough it would happen but I wanna see you happy. We are just kids and we are just starting to grow up in 16 and you are 17. You're going to be 18 in a few months then a month after that ill be 17. We are going to make mistakes but I just hope we both realize that this was a mistake either that or we just had bad timing I always told you your timing was bad. Even if it was a mistake it was a beautiful mistake. If it was bad timing don't worry because in the end it will be perfect whether or not we are together. Ill always be here for you because I instantly fell in love and in that moment promised to got through life with you. In love as a friend or just as long as you need me. It was and instant love for me.....
