His Heart

Risk

Everyday I have visions of a nigga splitting my wig .I pray everyday for the shit that i did  as a kid .Iv done a lot of shit I'm not proud of but it's shit I learned from .I always heard young who I was where I should go in life and what I should be in the future .Like everyone knew where life would take me ,they were all wrong though .I dream about shit I shouldn't even remember.Like the day my pops left after beating me and my mamas ass leaving us for dead at five being taken away shorty after and my mama fighting to get me back just to be snatched away and thrown into the system .Where the state don't give a fuck about you and to the folks you are  placed with your just another check .At age 12 I was adopted .I was playing cards when the house supervisor that night brought me into a office with my foster mother and told me that it would be my last night in the home.Little did I know leaving would better a nigga but ruin a nigga all in one but if I could go back I wouldn't change it shit is what made me .

The nigga who adopted me was your typical overrated successful black man .He's the type that likes putting on a show had no black friends and believed he was white and pretended as if he never struggled a day in his life .He had a wife of 10 years who was white herself and they had two kids together and one from a separate marriage that were all molded to be just like him . His wife Megan was cool but brainwashed .You know the type of white female that gets a dose of one nigga and never looks back bows down to everything he says and is always at his beck and call never thinking for herself .There was never any getting through to her and you could tell she would always be like that .

Mike though made sure of it that I was in the best school taking the best classes and passing them all with A's nothing else was acceptable in his world .I remember talking to the nigga one day and he asked me what I wanted to do with my life in the future before I could answer he said "I already know your going to go to one of the most prestigious universities in Atlanta graduate with honors and go to med school to become a doctor ,and follow in my footsteps" as he was standing up to leave the room that being the finale decision the only decision.And being a youngin who needed guidance I listened .That is until my uncle came back several years later .With a offer I couldn't refuse .

Derek changed the my world in such a short amount of time .And all it took was one drop ,3.4 mil and a a dream a nigga was willing to chase to help me see things clearly and if it's one thing I learned it's no risk no reward and to path my own way I was willing to risk it all .