Come On!

Damn it's all good, i guess

I ran to the bathroom and turned on the lights. All I could think about is that razor in the cabinet. I opened the cabinet and grabbed the tiny, metal razor. I ran back to my bedroom and locked my bedroom door even though I am by myself. I then turn the lights on dim and sat on my bed wondering if this was a good idea. I swallowed really hard and began drawing cuts on my arms. 1...2..3... it hurts so bad. 4...5...6... ok, I feel kinda better. 7...8...9... Ok... one more... I felt warm tears developing in my eyes as I cut to 10. I finally put the razor back on the bed and looked at my arms which oozed with blood. Tears rolled down my face as I tried to hide the physical pain away by laughing at myself for being a pussy. I wiped my tears away and unlocked my door to put the razor away. I looked back at my arms which had more blood in before. I then ran warm water from the sink and splashed it on my arms which stung a lot. I walked back to my bedroom and saw my phone lit up. Picking up my phone, I read the texts:

Sasha: Hey Hazel! Are you coming?

My heart began to sink as Sasha wanted me to go to that party. I started to sweat because Sasha would never talk to me again if she sees my cuts. Sasha is my only friend and losing her is like failing a test. I looked back on my arm which had blood staining my cuts. I gulped and typed a random excuse:

Me: I can't go.. I am having a migraine.

I read it again even though I typed 8 words and pressed send, hoping Sasha doesn't get too suspicious. Sasha responded quick. I read the message and breathed a sigh of relief.

Sasha: Oh okay :( I promise I will save some treats for you! Like cake or cookies or sum shit? XD

Me: Haha, no thanks! I am not hungry.

I looked over the text and undo it since Sasha might be wondering why I am not hungry and she would be thinking wrong ideas.

Me: Haha, no thanks! I don't want sweets.

I pressed send hoping I said the right thing again so she won't barge in my house. I didn't have a sweater or long sleeve shirt on so if she busts in, she would see the damage I caused. She responded and I read it:

Sasha: Lol okieee! I would see you tomorrow at school! Baii -3-

Me: Lol okay bye!

I turned my phone off and flopped on my bed. I looked back at my arm and I see dried blood staining my arms. Tears developed in my eyes
again. I hopelessly tried to wipe them away but it was no use. The waterworks came out and I end up sobbing to go to sleep.

(Sorry if the story was short, I tried to hurry up and make this story so y'all can know I wasn't lying >_<)