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Chapter 15

Long chapter I think :) yay.

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Songs for this chaper

Pretty hurts - Beyonce

Promises - Jhene Aiko

Wings - Birdy

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I wake up to the sun shining in my face. I look around to see that I'm naked and alone on the bed. I grab my belongings , trow on my clothes and tiptoe down the stairs. Body's are scattered across the couches and floors and red cups everywhere possible.

I make my way to the door to exit the frat house. While calling a cab I watch as people wobble out of the house trying to get to their car. I hop into the cab telling the driver my destination. When I arrive I pay him the cost of the ride and lazily make my way up my house.

I feel like i haven't been here in ages. The house just drowns and depression and dullness. It reeks of the smell of alcahol from bottles I drank the last time I was here.

I make my way to my bedroom sitting on my messy bed. Sitting in front of my mirror. I take a beer bottle and start drowning it down my throat. My eyes have dark purple circles under them and by eyes are just grey.

I set the bottle on my bed once im done with it. I stand up going closer to my mirror.  I take a good look at my self... letting the disappointment settle in. I was neger pretty as a child or even now.

My ribs used to stick out my chest and bu bone structure and color bones poked out of me. I suffered from anorexia. Nobody knows expect for my parents. I went to a rehab for a year but I ended up going back again after the incident happend.

Harry actually saved me from it all. Nobody understood my problem or made me feel good about myself. But that's all in the past now... as he is also.

I still ponder on the memories of it. If I could forget it all I would more than happy to. But that's not how reality works I guess. Society always focuses on the past and worst decisions.

I need Harry more than anything then and now. No matter what I do... I can't let go. Sex and lust won't get me anywhere. I need someone to lean on. Christina is on vacation and gabby went to college.

My rehab therapist didn't help at all. When I told her the horrid things I did to myself all she would say is.

"Are you happy with yourself?"

At school I would get questioned by being skinny and being gone for a year. People didn't know the real reason why I was at Australia for. They would just say that I was a spoilled little rich bitch who was ungreatfull.

If only had they known that the reason I was in Australia for being taught to eat again and feel better about myself. My mom would always say pretty hurts. But I guess I took that the wrong way and looked at things differently. I felt pretty by starving myself.

I run my hands through my hair. Studying my face closely. Glancing at my body before taking all the bottles in my room and throwing them at my reflection. Breaking down into sobs while the looking back at the shatterd mirror.

I don't want to admit this but I do need him.

Harry's p.ov.

I look at my bruised fase. My eyes and arms are still healing from the fight I got into. The sun creeps into my bedroom illuminating mu tan skin. My room brightens and I can see everything much clearly.

The sunlight shines on my piano. Memories of my great-grandfather. He taught me how to play the piano. I even got a scholarship to a school of the arts but I never went because I got into drugs and my passion for piano drifted away. The death of my great-grandfather drew me back to it because I felt I was always with him as I played it.

I took a seat and ran my fingers lightly over the keys while closing my eyes. I start playing the melody to the song wings by birdy. The sound comes out as beautiful as I remember. I started to sing the song wings

Sunlight comes creeping in
Illuminates our skin
We watched the day go by
Stories of what we did
It made me think of you
It made me think of you

Under a trillion stars
We danced on top of cars
Took pictures of the state
So far from where we are
They made me think of you
They made me think of you

Oh lights go down
In the moment we're lost and found
I just wanna be by your side
If these wings could fly

Oh damn these walls
In the moment we're ten feet tall
And how you told me after it all
We'd remember tonight
For the rest of our lives

When I finish  I got up from my seat and go to my dresser

I've heard rumors that Summer is doing anything to forget a someone... me of course. I look through albums of Summer and I's past photos. I hope she doesn't go down her dark path again because of me. She still is fragile from her disorder.

I know she needs me. I'm the only she has now and I'm the only one who knows. I hope we can put aside the crazy snd bullshit things we did together in the past time we have reunited.

The knock on my door is loud. I expect it to be one of my friends but its her. I let her in with a warm hug and she silently sobs into my shoulder.

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"I always think of you. I just wanna be by your side." I state to her. She doesn't say anything but rest her head on my lap.

"But somethimes I think when we have a true moment we always have something or someone to come in the way. I feel like your ten feet tall and I'm trying to get to you but you grow taller than me eberytime I make a move." Harry expresses. "I feel like I'm in drowning in my thought. I want to say something but I feel lile no one hears a sing thing."

"So can we start over, Summer?"I ask looking into her beautiful eyes.

She smiles brightly while she hugs Harry. For once he feels like he's complete.

" If you only want to. I mean- I would. I'm just saying that it would be great if... we could... only..." Harry rambled off. Summer ended his words with a sweet kiss.

"Yes" she smiles at him

" This could be a start to something good or bsd but im willing to take the chance with you."

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I decided to take a walk down my street. I don't really go out much anymore. I start down the road to see two men with black hoods and pants on following. I quicken my pace and turn into a alley to see if they are actually following me. To my surprise they turn down the alley too.

I start to sprint and they go into a full run. I try to run from them but their speed was faster than mine. One guy jumps on me and smashes my body onto the ground.

I thrash around and grab on his neck chocking him and knee him straight in the balls. I finally get up throwing the guy on the wall . The other man starts at me. I punch him square in the face before the other man knocks me down. They both pull out guns and point them to my head.

I flip their arms bacward. They scream in agony as I twist their arm. I take both of their guns and point it to them. I feel a cool medel on the back of my head.

"Put the guns down" a stern voice says. I try to turn around to switch positions so my guns can face all three of them. I then see a shotgun.

" I advise that you drop your weapons before we shoot your brains out." He informs me. Before I can make a move I feel something hit my head and I drop to my back. Before I black out I hear faint words.

" Lesson learned not to betray us."

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(A/N) omg guys its been soo sos os sos soo long! I apologize for that. School is just like ... shit. And our teachers act like we are in traning to graduate college but in reality we are just going to high school next year shesh. I have already started writing chapter 16. Will be posted whenever I can... I hope you guys understand. Ily so so so much. OH AND THANKS FOR LIKE OVER 1K. - Sydney ( pls excuse mt errors. This chapter is unedited cuz I just wanted 2 update so bady)