tea errors (moba)

laying into summer music

2 years ago

we lay on top of the grass together. no friends, no onlookers, no cold, judging eyes, just the two of us, resting. i look to my left and gaze upon the pretty blond boy next to me. 

even with the lack of tourism as spring breaks begin to wrap up, the park is surprisingly vacant. the lack of large families and obnoxious sightseers brings an ominous but comfortable silence among the leaves of the old widow tree we lay beneath.

i draw a breath and take in my surroundings. the warm spring air surrounds me and hundreds of intricate art pieces throughout the large historic park. my hands are warm, with one interlocked between matt's. oh how beautiful he is. his soft, blond hair is splayed across his face in such wonderful patterns. his normally very rugged and tough-guy look has dissolved into a peaceful one, his state of relaxation very obviously displayed. my goodness, isn't he beautiful.

i feel his hand come off of mine, which breaks me from my train of thought. i look up to him. he's sat himself against the aging willow, resting his head on the rough wood and looking at the statues in the distance. i follow his action. there is a lack of words spoken between us, but that's okay. we don't need words when we can simply enjoy another's prescence.

he looks to me and grabs my hand. i let him do this, giving him a reassuring squeeze. he sighs. something is on his mind. he's been pondering, just like me.   "what's up babe?" no response from him. i nudge him. "anything wrong?" "no, it's just..." he takes a second to collect his thoughts "you'll be here for me right? because a lot of stupid shit happens in this stupid world and i want to know if you'll be with me for it" " oh honey, i'll always be by your side." i smile warmly, he returns it. "now don't you worry your pretty little head about this." i say as i mess with his hair. he smiles brightly. i love that beautiful smile. "i won't." we gaze into eachother's eyes for a moment before closing the space between us in a soft and light-hearted kiss. "i love you, jobe." "i love you too." and it seems the rest of day melts away him.

♡

god, where did i go wrong? what the fuck did i do,??

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a/n: i am tired and hate myself and want a girlfriend. writing seems to be the only thing calming me down atm, not even my music is helping me. i'm stuck. thank you for reading.