My Hidden Love For You

Finally

Kenzie's POV
Finally after what felt like a lifetime Kensley woke up. She started crying and Johnny ran to get doctors. They ran in and unhooked Kensley from of the cords and handed her to me. My little girl was okay. Her dad on the other hand I don't know. I just held my baby and cried of joy. After a 30 minute checkup we could go home. Before I left I took Kensley to Ashton's room and sat on his bed. He didn't look good at all. After a few minutes Johnny and I went back to the house and I put Kensley in her swing and Maisy came over and she was helping me clean around the house because we leave Canada tomorrow. After we cleaned for a while I cooked some food and kept Kensley right next to me because I want to make sure she's okay.Every time she started to fall asleep it would freak me out because I was scared she was gonna go out again. Anyway we ate and then I got Kensley out and fed her. Maisy and I watched some movies. After about 3 movies Maisy had to go home so I walked her out to her car and as I walked her out Johnny came in. 

K:Hey baby

J: Hey princess

K:You okay?

J:Yeah im fine 

K:No you're obviously not babe. You can't hide things from me. Im your girlfriend I know when you're not okay. I asked to see if you would lie. Now whats wrong.

J: I really wanna spend more time with you but you've been caught up in other things 

K: Johnny were together everyday and were on tour together we sleep together every night.

J: But thats because we have to be together. I feel like you don't wanna be with me during that time.

K: Johnny of course I wanna be with you then. You're my boyfriend. I love you so much. If we weren't on tour Id still wanna spend this time with you. I still have to take care of the baby and do school. Johnny I really truly love you. 

J: I love you too but I feel like it isn't our time right now. I feel like we need to break up and get together later. You mean so much to me but I feel like we need to have more time for each other.

K: Johnny please don't do this right now. Johnny my daughter almost died. You're whats keeping me strong. You are so amazing. Don't break up with me now.

J:Kenzie I love you too much to stay with you. Kenzie we don't have the time for each other. 

K:Babe is it like the fact that you want more sex or that you want to go on more dates or something like that.

J:Yeah kinda

K:Baby you know I don't wanna have sex yet. I don't wanna risk getting pregnant again.

J: Theres something called condoms and birth control babe 

K:Lets just try to sleep this off baby. We have a show tomorrow

J:Fine.

I tried sleeping but I just couldn't. I got up and saw that Kensley was still awake so I got her out of her crib and went into the living room with her. I started looking into her beautiful blue eyes and I sang Ocean Eyes to her. 

Johnny's POV

I was asleep for a while but then I heard singing coming from the living room. I got out of bed and went there and saw Kenzie singing to Kensley. I really feel like me and Kenzie shouldn't be together right now just because of the fact that we don't have enough time for each other. I love her so much but I don't want to hurt her. I know breaking up would hurt both of us but thats for a short period of time. 

After watching Kenzie for a while I went back to bed. I just thought about how much I want to be with Kenzie but how I also want us to have more time for each other. After 30 minutes of thinking I went to sleep.

Kenzies POV

After I sang a Few songs to Kensley and she fell asleep and I put her in her crib and went to bed with Johnny. He wrapped his Arms around me and it made me think about how much I really don't wanna lose this. He feels like we should break up though. Im gonna support his decision so matter what its gonna hurt me if he decides that we should break up but thats his choice.

4 months Later 

Hey. Its Kenzie. Its been 3 months since the tour ended and its been hard.  Johnny and I decided to break up. We don't talk at all anymore. I do still talk to Lauren of course because she's my best friend and Yeah. Kensley id doing great. Her dad is out of the hospital now so thats good. I think im gonna go live though. 

On Kenzies live 

Comments:

xJenziex-Did you and Johnny Break up

Kenzie:We did.  We didn't think it was right.

KFZJVO- Are you guys still friends

Kenzie:Yeah of course. we don't talk much but were friends.

Maid:Mackenzie sweetie the baby is awake. 

Kenzie:Can you watch her for a few minutes im on live.

Maid:Sure honey

Kenzie: Thank you

Maid:Youre welcome sweetie 

bbgkenzieziegler-WHOS THAT KENZIE 

Kenzie:That is umm... She is our maid. 

KFZHATER- You can't even take care of your own child you have to make your maid do it for you 

Kenzie: ok thats the rudest thing I've ever seen. I spend 20 hours a day with my child. I love her so freaking much and thats a terrible thing to say. I take care of my child more than I take care of myself. I could be dying and Id still be taking care of her. 

After that I ended my live because I was pissed. I got kensley from the maid and went to my room and snuggled with her. I texted Lauren and told her that I was going to come to her house. She said ok and so I started getting Kensleys bag ready and then I waited for my mom to get home and then we got in the car and she drove me to the Orlandos house. I really hope I don't see Johnny. Its gonna tear me apart.