one night

heights

city lights beneath me. wind in my hair. shrieks of horror. and in that moment that EXACT moment. you forget about the rest of the world. voices fade out. everything is a blur. you don't know what will happen next. it was 3 in the morning wondering around the streets of New York were three 24 year old teens. blabbering on about how they know everything about love. some of the best memories are made while intoxicated. and that's what happened that night. I don't know if it was the feeling of anticipation as the roller coaster get closer and closer to the top.the sips of vodka from before. or the need for a rush of adrenalin that struck me from my head to toes. but I wanted to do something different, not sure if an abandoned roller coaster on 3rd street that reached the top of what looked like a skyscraper. with wires hanging out at the darkest hours of the night was the best way to solve that problem. but it was happening. as it screeched with the sound of an old car starting up it felt like the whole city was awoken not by the sound but the feel In

the air. i was alone on the roller coaster my friends stood bellow controlling it. as it reached the top I thought it was over but suddenly I didn't care. I felt like a bird jumping off a building, with out wings. a fish swimming in air. the air was thinner . I blanked out the world went black I could've sworn I heard the white noise approaching me I could almost feel them placing me upon my death bed. I was dreaming about what living with the devil would bring. hot flames around me i figured id be going to hell I mean I've been living it for my entire life why stop here. but no. it picked up the pace and dropped I couldn't feel much more then my stomach drop and realizing It will all be okay and nothing last forever I started screaming with joy I even cracked a smile I'm okay and I have a life and for now that all I need. I couldn't believe one careless reckless choice could change so many things..