October (a Dauren Cimorelli story)

When it all started

Dani's POV

It was a nice October day when I got the phone call that shattered my heart.

My love.

My life.

My everything had just broken up with me and now I'm nothing to her.

She could try and tell me that I'm her world but it would be a lie because she wouldn't have broken up with me if she truly did love me.

My heart has shattered into pieces and I can't find out how to put it back into place.

The world can tell me to get over my feelings for her because she clearly has but it will never be the same because she doesn't love me anymore, but I love her and it hurts that she doesn't love me the way I want her to.

I grab my phone and click my voicemail listening to the last voicemail that I got from her.

"Hey baby, I hope you are having a good day. I just wanted to tell you that you are the best thing that's ever happened to me and I'll love you forever and always. Anyways, I know whatever you are doing is important but I just wanted to leave you a voicemail to remind you of the fact that you are the best damn thing that's every happened to me and I never ever want to lose what we have. I love you baby" I break down in tears after the phone call ends.

Everything she said is now nothing to her.

She doesn't love me.

She doesn't care about me.

She doesn't want to be with me.

I'm not her baby.

I'll never be her baby.

I'm no ones baby.

I curl up into a ball and cry.

"Why can't she love me again? Why did she leave me? Why am I not good enough for her?" I manage to get out in between sobs.

"Dani?" I hear Amy ask

"Yes? What do you need?" I hear the door open and close indicating that she's in the room

"Oh honey" Amy says as she crouches down beside me and holds me in her arms.

I manage to calm down a little bit and explain what happened everything leading up to the breakup.

"Oh honey, I'm sorry that happened to you. Do you want to go to the gym with me and we can work out and get some of that aggression out of you? I'm heading there now. I can give you a ride" Amy tries to ask me and I just shake my head no wanting to be alone.

She nods her head and leaves the room but not without giving me a hug and a kiss on the forehead.

"Just remember Dani, I'm here for you if you want to talk to me. I know breakups are hard but you'll get through it I promise" she says and once I hear the door click shut I grab my journal and start writing in it.

I write about my feelings, my life, how the break up is affecting me right now then write my signature smile and heart. It's my way of always reminding myself that things will look up and that people love you.

Once I'm done journaling I close my favourite journal and try and get some sleep, thinking that a nap will do me some justice.

A.N, so I'm not really back, but I wanted a week to just update. I wanted to experiment and see how I'd feel. I can't promise all the content I post will be good, but I'm going to try. I started going to therapy and I hope that helps my mental health get better.

Love you guys!