I Remember [Songfic]

[Yongguk's P.O.V.]

I scribble down song lyrics as I am seated by the writing table, tears lining the rims of my eyes. "This will be blasting on the streets of Seoul," I whisper to myself. A muffled whisper, it is. I sigh and shake my head, keeping the pen down. 

I rest my head on my desk as tears begin staining the piece of paper. Carelessly, I close my eyes in an attempt to nap, but end up unsuccessful and instead, recall our memories.

I see us. Laughing, hugging, messing around. She's walking up to me when we first met now. I have fallen in love, I believe. I am dreaming. I don't know why I still remember, I wonder.

Our first date comes into my vision, I daydream us cuddling on my favorite spot, under a beautiful cherry blossom tree. We point out various constellations, she reaches out her hand as I hold it in mine. I smile, something I can't do anymore.

It's a couple years later now. We are gradually growing apart. She doesn't talk to me as much, and if she does, it doesn't feel the same. Her eyes don't smile when she looks at me anymore. Her beautiful, shy, innocent smile has turned into a crafty one. 

I expect an explanation. I ask her what happened to the girl I once fell in love with. She isn't answering, but keeps checking her phone. I ignore the fact she may be cheating on me. Oh well, I say and turn back.

It's been a few weeks and we haven't talked again. I see her under the cherry blossom tree. But who is she with..? I march up to her and look at the couple. They seem similar in personality, but then again, only people like her would want to go out with her. She has left me. She doesn't listen to my music. She breaks my heart by telling me she was never fond of me.

I retreat, not arguing more. I run to my house, biting my lip in an attempt to stop my true feelings from being revealed. I grab what ever she once presented to me and dump it, just the way she has dumped my heart. All I am left with now is a promise, which we both made but I'm afraid it doesn't exist anymore. 

It was just like that. I am unaware of what she has done to me and how. She has broken me. Love is a joke to me now.

However, I vow to keep that promise, for I do not break them. I will always convince myself that she feels the same way as I do and get over it, even if the pain will come over time.

I will walk on the road of success by myself, temporarily, and I will show her everything I've got.

I open my eyes as the memory gets erased away momentarily. I run a hand over my face before I glance at the now liquid-stained sample of writing. I exhale as I grab my pen again, and write down the title of the song; "I Remember."