My Bruised Heart ❣

Chapter 31: Distance

I went home at almost midday to make sure Jude and Shane aren't going to see me.

My eyes are swollen from crying to sleep last night. Zeus hasnt texted me since he left. I am not expecting him to. I know I hurt him but he has to realized I am doing this for him. I seldomly do things for myself and he should know that better than anyone. This rain isn't helping with my emotion right now. I need to rest. I still have a shift tonight at the nursing home.

I head to my bedroom and start prepping my uniform when I glanced at my study table. There, is our photo with the eiffel tower behind us from our trip to Paris last month. Gosh, one of the best memories I had with him. We only stayed there for 3 days but it was unforgettable. We made love and love and love when we can on that trip. We actually thought I was pregnant last week because I was late for the first time. Im not on any contraception, we are just doing it the natural way. That's how I love that man. I trust him so much, it hurts.

I wiped my eyes welling with tears and flip the picture frame so its facing the wall. Stop Freya. I cant think of him right now. I have to function. This is what I hate when Im inlove. He wont leave my thoughts. Everywhere I look or go, he's with me. I told myself I have to leave at least a little self love but here I go again, giving him all of me. I wonder if he's at least thinking of me too. I doubt it. He's most likely busy running his empire while here I am nearly getting lunatic thinking about him.

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"So when's the wedding?" Rose asked while were munching on some grapes. We are having our 15 minutes break at work.

"We havent actually talked about the date yet. I told him after graduation we will." I lied.

"I just thought he's in a hurry. You know, he's almost 30. Sorry." She said

"Its okay. Im used to it. The age gap is sort of a big deal to everyone. But dont worry im cool with it." I lied again, im actually annoyed inside of me. Why does everyone think that our age gap is a big thing? I dont.

"If ever you get married this year, are you going to have a baby straight away?" She asked again

"It depends. I mean, If it happens then im okay either way. We're not on any contraception so you know, its not gonna surprise me if one day Im pregnant." I chuckled

"Oh? Really? I am. I had the shot a few months ago. Ed isnt ready for kids yet." She whispered

"So you guys are doing it now huh?" I teased her

"Yeah. Its addictive dont you think?" She laughed.

"I know right!" I laughed too.

"Come on, lets get back to work before our supervisor starts looking for us!" Rose exclaimed as we head out of the staff room laughing.

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"Youre not wearing black on your graduation day!" Mom yelled as soon as I came out from my bedroom.

I saw Jude and Shane holding themselves from laughing.

"Mom, stop with your superstitious thingy. It's 21st century for goodness sake. Black is not a bad omen okay?" I rolled my eyes.

"Get back inside and find something white! Dont make me change your clothes for you Freya!" She added

I groaned and stomped my feet back inside my bedroom. i wont win with her I know.

I dont have a white dress. I think?
I scanned and scanned my wardrobe until I saw a white corset dress with multiple coloured prints on it. This is the first dress Zeus bought for me when he took me to his yacht. I almost forgot I still have it. I only wore this once. Its very pretty. I'll wear it, but this time I'll pair it with my lace white pumps.