We're over. Details? Sure.
He sent me screenshots of his chat with douch bag and he asked of what douch bag was saying true. Once i said yes, he exploded. We were then over. I ran out of the house crying, i ran and ran until my legs got tired. I sat on a pavement and bawled my eyes out. I knew that i shouldn't be crying because if Jezza did love me, he would've accepted me no matter what. But that was it. Him not accepting what happened to me made me broken!! He said he can't have a relationship with someone who has screwed his friend. What in the fuck!? It wasn't like i knew it was gonna happen!! I was drunk..in a matter of fact, i was wasted us fuck! I knew nothing of what happened beside me drunk. That's it. But people view me as the bad person...uhh hello??? Did u not listen to a word i said!? Or you're just taking the fuckers side because he's your boy!? Yep, totally the second one.
*Back to the story*
When i got a call from my mom asking me to go home, i did. I wiped my tears away but the shedding of tears seemed like no end. I got home and i just played with my food. I had no appetite whatsoever and all i wanted was to be alone. A few hours later, that's what i got..but not completely. My younger sis was with me while my Fam went out. I went to the bathroom, grabbed the razor and swiped it deep and fast on my wrist. Blood flowed out of the cut and added color to my skin as if it was a clear canvas. Blood dripped on the toilet sink and for a second there, i froze. Just making my breathing stable until it was back to normal. I had to go out of the bathroom to grab a towel from my room and that's when my lil sis saw the blood..dripping on the floor. She panicked, asking why i did this too myself. But i was calm. I have never felt calm in my life. She helped me wrapped my cut and help me grab a jacket to cover my wrist before anyone else could see it. I made her promise me not to tell anyone, that this was just our little secret and she kept it to herself. I fell asleep with my cut bleeding underneath the cloth i wrapped it with.
