Not All Love Stories Are Rainbows and Butterflies. (Sequel to TDTLF)

Chapter Seven: Zen

She pushed the door open and I quietly thanked her with a warm hug before I looked at my special girl.

"Hazzie? Baby in Ellie's tummy?"

And that is when it all went black.

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I don't know how much time went by until I opened my eyes again.  Low blood sugar, I guess, I definitely should have eaten lunch today.  I knew I fainted as soon as my vision went dark.  When my eyes started to focus, I realized I wasn't the only person in the room.  Four nurses dressed in baby blue scrubs, Jai, and another doctor were hovering around my bed.  Honestly, as much as this felt like a dream, the reality of my life just keeps going downwards.  I couldn't fathom having to protect El or Ellie or whoever she wants to be that day and also have her be pregnant... but someone who raped her.  I am so pro-choice, but this wouldn't have been my choice, and no matter what identity El was in, I know she would choose to pick the kid no matter what anyone said and for that, I was in it for the long run.  It just made me so sick that this bastard is winning again.  I haven't experienced any type of intimacy in years with my fiance.  YEARS.

"Harry,"  I hear my name being called pulling me out of my thoughts.   I don't know if I am ready to hear the news yet so I just keep my face blank and stare at the wall for a few more minutes.

"Hazzie," El/Ellie whispers and I could feel her big brown eyes staring at me.  I guess it is time. Time to see what the official verdict was.  "Hazzie, you there?"

I turn my head slowly at my beautiful fiance and smile, "Yes, I'm here sweetheart."  El/Ellie giggled into the hospital approved sweatshirt.  

"El... I is... am... El is sorry she scared you!"  I looked back over to Jai with a confused look. 

"You gave us quite a scare there, young man." One of the nurses said as she checked my IV.  I recognized her as one of El's main nurses for when she was here after the Connor attack.  Meave, a mother of a special needs child herself, made sure that she would always be on call for El.  I sighed before giving her an apologetic smile before looking around to see that they had a hospital bed set up for me in El's room so I could be with her. 

"I'm sorry, just a bit a shock and a bit of low blood sugar.  So, can someone please tell me what is going on?"

Jai came over from checking on El who had her eyes closed with soft snores coming from her mouth.  I know that she was probably super worried about my state and probably made her exhausted.   I was just thankful that she was sleeping at the moment.  I needed to gather all the information and facts before I could answer any of her questions.

"Basically, El is not pregnant," Jai said which lead me to let go a much-needed sigh of relief.  "I guess there was a bit of confusion that left El asking everyone if she had a baby in her tummy.  I am thinking that she heard all the questions that the paramedics asked you and Louis when they came.  With her constantly asking that, we did an ultrasound, took some blood, even got her to do a pee test, and we did the tests multiple times to make sure, but there is no baby.  We can always run those tests again in a few weeks, just to be sure." 

"Honestly, I don't even know what to say at the moment.  After I woke up from my little episode, I realized how much bringing another baby into this world right now would probably be the worse situation, but at the same time, I know that El would fight and be stubborn and be like Harry, we can do this. I feel some type of indifference with my relief. Like, I am thankful that in a few weeks, we can do those tests and hopefully by then they catch him and he can just be out of our lives for good," I sighed as I carefully sat up a bit more in my uncomfortable bed.  I must have gotten a bit bruised from my fall, I can feel the pain sting through my thigh as I move.