Is it possible
for someone like me
to have a happy ending?
Because I fought
for so long
before finally
getting an ending
and it was miserable
cheap and disgusting
sorrowful and empty.
Empty because
I had used so much
of what I had before
to rebuild to void
and then
it went crashing down
spectacularly
without me
and so now I am empty.
Will it take the same
to rebuild myself?
How long before
I decide that I
am well enough to share
the broken pieces
and the leaky cup
with someone else?
When is it finally time
to give it out again
and build a bridge
and buy a boat?
What if
I'm not meant to have
a happy ending
and I am really just
supposed to sit and watch
and applaud
as everyone else
is awarded theirs
after one try?
What if I'm meant to stay here
on the floor
picking up the pieces
always stuck in the middle
or again
at an empty ending?
