Dissociation

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And all of the sudden my mind was filled to the brim with thoughts that would not stop running laps around my brain, causing me to lose focus on 'reality'.

The more I try to resist, the more I feel myself being pulled away.

Everything is a dream now, and I hear words being spoken from far away, but I'm not able to understand their meaning.

In one part of my mind I realise my perspective on 'reality' is vastly different than everyone else in this room, but I no longer have the control to communicate this to anyone at the moment.

I know I'm not in 'another dimension' or in a dream, but at the same time I feel stuck somewhere my body is not.

I understand what's happening, but I'm confused, and scared, and lonely, and numb, all at the same time.

I look at my hands, and I know they are mine, but I don't recognize them.

As if I'm not looking through my own eyes.

It feels strange and unfamiliar everytime, but the moment I feel myself coming back, is the moment I realise my brain did the 'thing' again.

The thing it does when it feels the need to pull me away and protect me from something,

But I can't seem to figure out what from.

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