We fought almost all the time about everything. I mean for little things, things that didnt even matter. We had no respect for each other at times. I wasnt even sure he loved me for me. For the longest time I always thought he was only sticking with me because of the baby. And I know that was a big part of it. I just didnt understand. I am such a sweet girl, I am humbled, bubbly and so loving yet I seemed to deserve the worst. I just wanted a happy family but I was so destroyed that there was no way I was gonna get what I wanted until i could fix the problem. I knew that my jealousy would distroy us. I knew that my craziness and my lack of trust we were gonna break. But there was no way I was gonna let the past rule over my present. I deserved better I deserved more I deserved a family MY FAMILY! no matter how hard or long it took me I was gonna make it work and I was gonna make sure of it. We became stronger the more I put my past in the past and left it there. I learn to just put it behind me and try not to let it get in between of what I had. It was hard because my paranoia came and came again. But I learned to keep it as far away as possible. We became happier with each other. Yeah we still had our ups and downs but what relationship doesnt, right?
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Healing
Non-Fictioni'd like to tell you a story about myself but only because it may help some of us with our problems.
