Falling all in you

All over again (AU)

This is really short but this idea came to me and it wouldn't leave me alone so I wrote it down--It's set in an AU where Sanem meets Can once she's already engaged to Yigit and he with Polen, was anyone else thinking of that AU orrrr??

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"You said we couldn't continue like this" his voice sounds half-hearted, like he doesn't actually want her to leave but, still, the sinewy mass of muscle and determination that he is won't move from the threshold of his door, effectively leaving her out on his front step, shivering a little from the slight chill of the night

"I did"

"so then why are you here?"

and as far as questions go, that one falls under unresolvable

He seems to want an answer, though, something that hurts less than 'I don't know'

She can't come up with one, not one that would justify her presence at his door--again "I thought you could use a friend"

he laughs, at the idea, perhaps, that they're friends

"Friends?" but it's not really a question and, to her, it sounds more like condemnation

He pauses, his gaze heavy all the sudden, watching her like she might disappear, like she might evaporate as soon as he moves. He takes his chances, still, surging forward to pull her across the threshold, finally, gripping on to her by the small of her back, his hands large and warm through the thin material of her dress.

"Do you know what happens every time you do this?" that's not a question either and he has her pinned against the door now, his powerful arms imitating a cage on either side of her face, the heat of his skin cementing her feet to the floor "I do"

"You don't" he promises her this, shaking his head slowly, like he's trying to graze as much of her skin with the very tip of his nose "You don't Sanem, because if you did you would stop coming here"

she can't help but doubt that particular fact, no matter how selfish that makes her seem

It hurts me, he means to say, but instead he just inhales, catching as much of her scent as his lungs can handle without collapsing in on themselves and then even more "One look...one touch-god, even a single word from you and then I'm back there" gone is the cage but his hands are roaming now, getting lost on the slope of her shoulders, down the ridges of her arms, before settling on the lowest part of her hips, his fingers drumming there a tad recklessly and then they squeeze "I follow, blindly, the path that those dark eyes pave for me and it's a dream that you'd want me" he pauses, looking into her eyes before letting his forehead fall to rest on her shoulder

"but then I wake up" he says, now speaking into the sharp line of her clavicle "and thats all it was-- a dream, and you've left me behind again" his voice has gone quiet by the time Sanem works up the nerve to touch him in return. She lifts a hand to try but it never quite makes it there, getting caught at the wrist by his own hand, the quick motion catching her by surprise "I tell myself I'll be fine each time you do it, somehow, I pick myself back up" his eyes are molten and there's a rawness about how he holds onto her wrist, about how his thumb works itself back and forth on the skin that's heated by her pulse

"But then you come back-and you break me all over again"