Really Bad Story

trigger warning

15 years later
Jessie's POV
Mom was gonna take me on a picnic and than to a water park when she pulled over near a lake,  she looked me straight in the eyes and cried.  I wanted to help her and tell her it's okay but I didn't know what was happening,  she told me she loved me so. Much and took our a little box from her pocket,  she poked a few buttons on it and it was making a ringing noise,  she handed it to me and got her her car,  she drived
into the lake and when I realized what had just happened I started to cry,  when the little box stopped ringing I heard a voice,  dads voice
I was sitting on my bed when Jack walked in, I was filttleing around with my mom's phone,  the one she handed to me 6 years ,  2 days and 5 minutes ago, I really miss her.  Jack handed me a book,  it was a journal,  my mom's journal.  From when she was pregnant with me,  "hey I found be his in the cellar thing and I thought you'd want this " Jack said knowing I was down,  he was like my older brother.  The only person who understands me no matter how crazy my situation is.  I took it from him and he sat beside me on my bed.  We hugged me and told me everything will be fine.  Than he took me out for ice cream.  After we got back I went to my room and locked my door.  I was gonna read that journal.  I got it out from under my pillow and read it.  Every last word.  My mom had depression before me.  That's why she hooked up with random guys hence my dad when he gave her the talk it all got worse,  her meds weren't cutting it,  and neither was self harm anymore.  She needed more.  She needed the cure.  I started to sob into my pillow.  I can't believe I put all this on her.  Turns out she's been trying to end it all since I was 2. She was never successful until June 12th, 2:16,  I hid the journal under my bed and went to bed.  I wake up to the sound of banging on my door.  I quickly run up to it and unlock it to find an angry dean on the other side.  "I understand why you have the only lock in the bunker considering you the only girl but how many times have i told you to unlock your door before you go to bed "dean asked impatiently.  I could tell he was angry but trying to be reasonable.  "Eh sorry I feel asleep before I got the chance to unlock the door." I said acting tired. Dean gave me a hug and headed off.  I sat down on my bed. And thought. I thought about when it would be the right time.  I've been working on everything for years now.  Remember when I said I told Jack everything??  Welp I meant everything but one,  very important,  thing.  I knew this was the year.  Everything will be better,  everything will be perfect again. 
1 day later
It was time I set out a note and went off.  I got into Jack and my car,  ans drove for 5 hours 23 minutes.  Once I finally got there I had 4 minutes left.  I took my mom's phone out and called the group chat with Sam,  dean, my dad,  and most important,  Jack.  My Jackie bear.  I called them and drove off right ontop of my mom's car

2004-2019
Jessie Niki Novak was a sweet little girl who couldn't handle what was out in front of her.  She was destined to great things and she will be missed.  Rest in peace