For You To Love Me...

5~ A Twist in an Unfortunate Plot

I have come up with an excuse so vile and yet so neccessary to kill. I didnt want to at first but now i have no choice. I am getting sick. I fall down and remember the dream about me killing Richard it so happens that i feel asleep on Kirk. He dose want to go to Romainia, but i cant my family is here. The people who still appriciate me, if there is any. I walk out to the middle of the train tracks and my ears dont work, I just here a high pitched squeal. I look down the tracks and a trains coming. My legs dont work. I dont even remember getting out side. I try to walk but like a newborn baby i fall and start to crawl. Then my hands dont work. Im desprate the train inches closer and now i realize that i do love Kirk and if i were to get out of this one i would admit it to him.

The train is almost here just feet away from my death. I beat on the tracks but then my arms fall limp. I dont do anything else just sit and watch. I feel like i have already died. Once, Twice, and now here comes the real thing. I grind my teeth so hard i swear that i could feel the powder come into my mouth mixing with spit and blood. I dont bother trying to get rid of it. Just wait and now it is but inches from my face. I get plowed through. Blood shooting all over.... Except thats not what happens. I can move now im free. I crawl out of the line of the train and fall to the side breathing hard. The rocks digging into my back. I can feel them each like a little lie or a hard pillow tring to comfert me but not doing it efficently. I feel the grass beneath my feet and the sun high in the greay painted sky looking about like the moon throughout the layers of clouds. I feel a short breeze hit my face almost screaming to me get up.

I move my face and smile when i feel a drop of water hit my face the clouds now angrey with lightning. I look at the perfect houses each of them looking the same a peacful yet deserted place in one a baby crying. In another a man and woman screaming. I look at the forest behind me, calm and mysterious. The branches of trees reaching to the sky almost to ask the clouds for help up. I walk no destination but Kirk. I saw the pain of dying from an old man in an alley and the hope of a old man whom is sick. I can hear a woman giving birth in a near by house her screams now settled and you hear a babies yowl. I see a young child helping her little brother catch a lizard. A woman down the street making love to her husband ... I realize now why I take the time to look ...to notice all of this. Its because now I'm not blind or deaf or for that matter paralized or mute or anything else I may have forgot to add. I am reborn I see love, faith, peace, I see it all but I still ... even now want to kill. I cant help my self its the only thing I know how to do... but it's diffrent now i want to kill for good not the past evil.

 

To make the perfect kill to turn those into dust.