Followed

Chapter 1

I open my eyes and look immediately to the ceiling. It's a new day. Trying to stay positiv is one of my New Years resolution. Except that it is now April and this whole "new year - new me" thing did not go as planned as I thought it would. But let's face it, nobody cares. I turn around and grab my phone. Pressing buttons here, typing there, liking some of the pictures but nothing changes. For the past couple of months I started to get this feeling of ... I don't know... loneliness? It's like there is a hole that can't be fixed. I tried so many things like going out with friends, investing more time into my passions (that include watching movies on Netflix) and so much more. I even googled everything that could be related to this hole I am feeling. But don't get me wrong, I am not a depressed soul or anything and I definitely am not going through a break up right now. In fact I am the most unsocialized human being on this earth. I don't like much of the attention. My slogan is "Keep it safe - be not brave".  Or ...  I automatically look on the display clock and freeze. Panik runs all over my back "OH GO TO HELL HOW COULD I SPEND AN HOUR ON MY PHONE SHIT SCHOOLS STARTS IN 30 MINUTES". I jump out of bed and rush into the bathroom stumbling on my own left feet I hit my head on the sink. Great... Really great. Stay positiv Tina... Breathe... whats the worst it could happen? I tilt up my head and look straight into the mirror. I am bleeding on the left side of my forehead. I open the cabinet and keep looking for a patch. Finally, I found one. But... oh my god ... so this is the worst that could happen.
Nothing but a frown appears on my face when I enter the class that Btw I am 20 minutes late to. As I open the door all eyes are on me. Is it my shiny hair all in a messy bun? My pants that look donated by a homeless person? Ohh no of course not It's the damn big hello kitty patch on my fucking forehead. I put a sarcastic smile on my face and walk to the last seat on the right corner. At least I can die now in peace.