【 THE SAME ROUTINE 】
It's the same thing everyday:
“I just don't feel good.”
The same lie, the same feeling,
The same routine.
I wonder how they haven't caught on yet,
I wonder how they haven't noticed it's getting worse,
Every second of every day,
Like a ticking time bomb.
Over-worrying, overwhelming,
I shouldn't be this worried.
Repress these emotions,
Just keep them happy.
(Pause)
Keep them happy,
That's all you have to do.
Hide the feelings,
Don't let them know.
Growing like weeds in a garden,
Like vines on an old house,
An old alarm,
Ring, ring, something isn't right!
It's the same feeling,
Letting me know when something is wrong,
When nothing is truly wrong,
It shouldn't be like this.
Oh, you're leaving for a while?
That's alright,
I'll just be a sitting duck,
Waiting and worrying about you.
How can I escape this?
Is there no way?
Will i ever overcome this?
I feel lost, will this ever stop?
It's the same thing everyday:
“I just don't feel good.”
The same lie, the same reality,
The same routine.
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i wrote this poem in seventh grade for an assignment in my ela class. at the time, my anxiety was at an all-time high and no one except for my best friends new about it. yes, i had to perform this in front of at least twenty other classmates, along with my teacher. i ended up making four people and my teacher cry and a 100%.
