Sweet Sweet Love

Chapter 14

Ellie's P.O.V

Ned and I have been dating for a few months and lately I've been uncomfortable because the Internet doesn't really know , well sorta and our BuzzFeed colleagues know and are excited for us , but they ask too many questions like ...

Do you have a date night ?
Are you going to get married
Soo ... have you done ... ya know ?

And to be honest I'm terrified by some of the questions . I mean Ned is the best thing that's ever happened to me me this far , but already thinking about marriage COME ON NOW . We've only been dating for a few months , not even few years , and he didn't help matters . When we move in together , can we get a pool table , or can we go to Disney on our honeymoon he said jokingly . I know he's just joking around most of the time , but it's still overwhelming . I'm totally down for marriage , kids , the whole nine yards , but just not now we're still kinda in the beginning of our relationship . It's making me so stressed that I can't even focus on work . I was sitting at my desk when Ned walked by and asked me to get lunch . I was sitting with a open Adobe Premier tab open , but not doing anything I was just staring . He put his hand on my arm gently which snapped me out of my trance . I saw him , took off my headphones , and got out of my chair . We need to talk I said and we went outside , lunches in hand . I promised 3 times I wasn't going to break up with him because he started to panic . I sat down and stared into his eyes . I think we need to slow down I said calmly on the verge of breaking down . What do you mean he asked . Well you joke about getting married , moving in , and having kids , and while at this point I would not object to that stuff , we've been dating for just a few months . It stresses me out , and it makes people ask me questions I don't want to answer or don't know how to answer and I can't focus anymore I said not meaning to raise my voice at him . He smiled from one side of his mouth and spoke in the quietest voice I'd ever heard from Ned . Of course I can calm down I just ... I guess I'm just thinking to far ahead , I'm sorry I didn't mean to stress you out , if I'd known I wouldn't have said anything , you mean a lot to me and I wouldn't want to do that to you he said which made me smile . He's definitely a keeper .