All in one

Rage

I feel like I'm the cause of it all
Maybe if I was gone then nobody will fall
She said, with tears in her eyes
Her heart is broken but to my surprise

She still, keeps a smile on her face
But really what's her case
Is she just a disgrace
She needs, all the love and affection
Not hate and neglection
Looking at her reflection
She feels, like she doesn't need to live
Not a chance to forgive
Hard to stay positive
She can't, find nowhere to go
Doesn't want to show
Hoping nobody will know
she wants, to disappear
She has so much fear
Won't make that shit clear
She doesn't, know what else to prove
Cus in the end she might lose
But nobody, understands where She is coming from
So now, her rage war has just begun

You think that I am strong
Because I stand proud and tall
Convincing everybody that I am good while I try to stall

Distracting them from the truth
I am hiding it as if I was hiding a loose tooth

What nobody knows is that I am really weak
I try not to let my heart speak
Because if it does I may just weep

I explain how I feel when I dance
That's really the only thing that gives me a chance

Do you ever feel like your life is pointless?
Like there is no reason to live
Sitting here thinking am I gorgeous
Or do I have nothing good to give

This shit is wack
I am worried about what people think of me
When I should be worried about making a stack
When being on my grind is how it's supposed to be

My feelings do not mean nothing
I guess that's why people treat me like I won't be something
Something with meaning
Not just sitting around the house cleaning

I really do not understand I feel
Because my story is just too unreal
But still
I try to make it across this steep hill

Why should I have to fear?
Because of people in the atmosphere
Why should I be afraid?
Of every noise that is made
Why should I not trust?
Those who are made of lust
Why should I have to pretend?
As if I am not capable to defend
Why should I stay in the shadows?
Instead of walk the path that I chose
Why should I let disappointment change me?
Instead of be the best me I can be
Why should I walk away?
Instead of stay and prove that I am okay
Why should I stay tucked away like a piece of paper?
Instead of stand as tall as the skyscraper

Maybe I let my situation get to me
Maybe I lost all hope for a great life
Maybe I felt like a disappointment
Maybe I felt like a mistake
But here is why................

Your hateful words are so bitter
My feelings you don't even consider
My voice you hear
But your not listening
My tears you see
But your not paying attention
I gave you my all
But you left me to fall

You took me in
You kicked me out
You brought new girls
Into our house
I always cried
You punished me
No matter how hard I tried

Why didn't you let me know
That you really had to go
Why didn't you let me stay
And be the best of your day
I was really sad
But maybe you were glad

I can't keep giving chances
You will just use me as an advantage
The pain that i have went through
But it was all because of you
I am hurting
Your are flirting
Not even noticing how I feel I
I am now realizing all this shit is real

Because of no courage to speak of the pain,
This part of our lives remains the same ...
Years of analysis, a lifetime of good,
Can be shattered with just four words....
Everything may not be as it appears,
But I guess it is what it is,
And now I know that I am not his.....