Dear journal,
I have been upset today, just hearing things people say when they think you are far enough away you can't here, and watching people move on with their lives and be happy with someone, and I am just here like will I ever be that happy with someone? I mean someone I used to think made me happy is happy with someone else now because I didn't want that, and of course I am so happy for them.BUT homecoming is coming up and do I have a date? NOPE. Why? Everyone else seems to, or atleast have options, well maybe it's cause I am not appealing to the eyes or too the ear or idk, i just wish I could go with someone besides my friends. I mean I love them for letting me go with them but it isn't fun being the fifth wheel all the time , it gets sad and kinda just makes me wonder why I was the so called chosen one too be the fifth wheel. I mean the boy in my journals is who I wanna go with, but he probably has a girlfriend that I don't know of or, just doesn't like me, I wish I had the courage to walk up to him and be like hey homecoming me u together be there, but thats just not who I am I am just too shy around him.
The weird thing is I usually go for the skater guys the guys who people look at and go ooh trouble makers, but he is totally different and I have never wanted to be with someone so much, I like him for being his clumsy cute geeky self it makes him different in a way. He is the type of guy I wouldn't be afraid to bring home to my parents or be myself around, he isn't the type of guy to judge a book by it's cover, or make jokes towards your looks or if you don't look good enough one day, and ur not as prettty as the day before. He is not like the other guys I have dated who never told me any good things like your beautiful, I mean it gets tiring hearing about your but all the time you know? Anyways thanks for listening.
Sincereley,
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RandomA series of journals that she writes about her everyday life that she can't tell one of her friends of her parents. She just sees it better to tell all the strangers about it because they don't know her and they could relate, she sometimes just need...
