Love me again

Ch. 4

A/n this wattpad is messing up I had chapter 4 done and I was in the car I had no wifi so I had to wait until I got home and I clicked on the chapter to proof read it it just deleted I did it again and it deleted!

Anyway bye

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Bethany

I woke up from a pain in wrist. I looked at it and seen my scars.

"Are you okay?" Harry said as he woke up

"Yeah." I said barley above a whisper, I covered up the cuts when one started bleeding.

"Bethany, why?" He said as he picked me up bridal style and carried me to the bathroom.

He took my wrist and wiped each one and cleaned them and before he bandaged up he kissed each and everyone. I love him.

"Promise, you'll never do this again?" "I can't, because.." I lifted up my shirt and showed him my cuts on my hips and on my legs.

He carried me to the bed and laid me down and lifted up my shirt and kissed each one.

"Never, ever do this again, your body is too beautiful for that. I wish you were mine I would never hurt you to make you do that, I wish I could hold you and kiss you, but I messed up and I'll never have that chance again." He said crying, I hugged him "Yes you will, but I can't love you like that until you love me like that." I said thinking of him being mine, but then he has Vanessa.

"I do love you like that."

"Vanessa."

"She's cheated, we broke up"

"Oh." I said, I looked at the clock it was almost 12. " I have to sleep" I crawled under the covers and turned the light off, he came and came under the covers too.

I woke up, Harry wasn't next to me. It was 6, I walked downstairs and in the kitchen was Harry and Hayes. I walked to the refrigerator when Hayes came up to me and grabbed my wrist, I jerked it back. "Why?" He asked "Because." I said and grabbed a cantaloupe with Greek yogurt, and raspberries. I took the seeds out and put Greek yogurt in the middle with raspberries, "Is she on a diet?" I heard Harry ask Hayes "Yeah,she doesn't need it though." He said

I went upstairs and grabbed a blue dress that was sleeveless but had a collar and had white polka dots on it with buttons on the top part, it was cold so I threw on some black leggings underneath, I wore some tan sandals. I did my make up BB cream, powder, eyeliner, mascara, and lipstick.I did my hair I curled some pieces and threw In a bow, I grabbed my white floral backpack and my phone and walked downstairs "Bye Harry and Hayes!" I screamed "Bye." Harry said as he came up and hugged me, I hugged back "By the way, you look gorgeous." He said walking into the kitchen.

I walked in school and walked over to my friends Matt, Carter, Cam, and my other ones

~Ring~

"Wanna walk together?" I asked Matt "Babe, what do you think!" He said, I giggled. "Baby, I was kidding of course!" I said laughing, We walked into class. I sat in my regular seat between Taylor and Matty. "I'm sorry Bethany. Just let me explain, please?" Taylor said "Fine. Just make it quick."

"Ok that girl you seen with me her name was Cloe, and she's liked me since the 6th grade, he said something terrible was gonna happen to you and the only way I could find out was to have sex with her, no I didn't want to, but I didn't want you getting hurt either. Bethany I love you so much I didn't mean to hurt you I seriously need you back please forgive me I just was trying to protect you. I love you."
"Taylor, I love you too but I don't know if I should let you back into my life, I don't want to be heartbroken again Taylor, I want you back I just don't know if that's true." "I swear it is I need you please believe me I won't hurt you again please Bethany." He was now crying, "Fine Taylor, one more chance." "Will you be mine again?" "Yes, I'm pretending this never happened I just want to forget it." "Me too."
It was the end of the day and I texted Harry.
"Me and Taylor made up!😊"
I sent it and got a reply almost instantly. "I'm happy for you, and me and Vanessa made up too 😏" I actually kinda got jealous by reading that but I just texted back "Get some 😂😏" "Lol."
Taylor hugged me from behind, I turned around and hugged him back. "I love you Bethany." "I love you to Taylor." "Do you wanna hang out at my house tonight, I'll pick you up at 7 and you can just stay the night?" "Sure see you then." We hugged again and then kissed, I kept it quick.

I pulled in my drive way and walked inside, it was only me and Harry home.
"Hey." He said to me, "Hey, is something wrong?" "Yeah..." "What is it?" "Me and Vanessa didn't really make up, I just was jealous beachside you and Taylor made up and I love you." "Oh it's ok Harry, I actually got jealous when you told me that you and her made up." "Wanna watch a movie." I looked at the time it was 5:30 "I have to leave at 7 but I guess until then,just let me change." I changed and he put in divergent.
It was 7 and Taylor texted me saying he was here, "Bye Harry." I said "Bye."
At Taylor's house
"Whatcha wanna do"
"I have something in mind." Taylor said "What..." "Makeup sex?"
"Taylor..." "We haven't had sex in forever Bethany." "Can't we just watch a movie?" "Ugh fine, you never want to anyways don't know why I keep trying."
"Then don't try, I'm done trying to. I know why you actually had sex with 'Cloe' it's because I wouldn't have it with you, am I right?'' I said as anger poured over me, but also sadness and some kinda other feeling but I can't name it.
"FINE. You know what, yeah that's why I did It, but that's not the whole reason I did it also to protect you, I mean why can't we ever have sex anymore!!? I cheated because I was in need of sex because you never will do anything with me but kiss hug and cuddle, your 19 now Bethany, you don't have to keep your body on lock down.'' He said obviously pissed.
"I KNEW IT, AND MY BODY ISNT ON LOCK DOWN I JUST DONT WANT TO HAVE SEX RIGHT NOW, IF YOU WANT IT SO BAD THEN GO HAVE IT WITH SOMEONE ELSE BECAUSE YOUR NOT GETTING IT FROM ME!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs realizing that I just ended it with Taylor I grabbed my bag and started leaving.
"So we're done for good now?" He asked
"I guess so because I honestly don't think I really love you, I don't think I really have either." I said as I ended our friendship our relationship and our chance of ever getting along again by a few simple words.