this part in particular is to keep someone from worrying. you know who you are.
i've been consistently crying all morning because i finally realized how difficult it is without being able to speak to you. i'm sorry if i do anything rash, but odds are i won't be able to stop myself from doing it. i just want you to remember that, no matter what happens, i love you. nothing can stop that. no person can stop that.
if you don't hear from me in about a month, you know why, sadly. maybe kris will tell you. he's always been trustworthy.
i'm sorry in advance.
