I won't do it.
I won't allow myself to give up.
Not on him.
Not on us.
I love him.
I'm scared he won't love me,
But apart of me knows
That he does.
I'm scared of being hurt.
Scared of his rejection.
Scared of losing his love.
I don't want to lose him.
The 1st to make me feel this way.
The 1st to [so far] hold my heart and not throw it away.
The 1st to mean more to me;
More than a temporary solution.
What if I can't make him happy?
What if he doesn't find me attractive?
What if I stop loving him?
What if he starts loving someone else?
I'm afraid of giving him all my love.
I'm afraid he won't care.
What happens when he finds a weakness?
What if he uses it against me?
That will hurt. A lot.
What will happen then?
Even if it's an accident,
Even if he apologizes,
Will I be able to heal?
Will I be able to trust him again?
I don't want to push him away,
But I fear that LOVE
IS NOT
MEANT
FOR ME.
