What I See
By Daine Cando
Prologue
The sunset is beautiful. As if something ended.
I'm on top of the hill. The wind rushing through me. The grass covering my legs.
Here I am sitting on the grass with my mini sketchpad as I draw the sunset along the edges of my pencil. Shading and making an outline with every detail. Erasing and then making thicker lines as usual. This was a perfect place.
A perfect place of peace and order. And as the sun would rise in a few hours later, a new battle will begin.
Oh Synon, I wish you were here with me.
xxxxx
"Bye Zelle, let's meet again," Derah said her final words to me. I was left alone roaming along the school hallways with my soul breaking into pieces. My mom was about to go to Deviscat, Rezek to fix some problems. So, she'll be leaving me again, like before.
Alone.
It starts with the letter A.
It's the beginning of every worst feeling I can feel.
It lets me suffer inside.
I am fragile and brittle.
I wondered if someone could fill the gap in my heart that was left by these people. The gap that always questioned my life. Am I important?
Suddenly, a voice startled me. The voice I barely heard these days. It was Araia.
“Hey, dweeb.” I glanced at her beautiful and flawless face. She’s fierce if you can look at her. With her brown eyes matching her light brown hair. Her eyebrows twitching and her arms crossed. “You look like a lost child crying for attention.”
I looked at her and said, "Compared to you? I don't think so. At least I don't bully people around."
She gasped and said, “You can’t talk to me like that! It’s against the law!”
“The law? Who said?” I sarcastically laughed. “You? But you’re a liar, Araia.”
“Stop saying hogwash things or I will—“
“What? Kick me out of this prison? Kill me?” I retorted. “Your words can’t bring me down.”
I was about to walk away but she grabbed my arm. Her grip wasn’t too strong so I hesitated and threw a glare at her. "Stop bothering me." After that I walked away.
I approached the bus terminal and got on board immediately. People were snoring as if their day was really exhausting so they don’t care even their mouths were wide open despite the fact that I can already see their esophagus.
"What should I do?" I thought in my mind. Crying can be a solution but I was out of tears. Shouting can be a good try, but I can't speak a word. My thoughts were too loud to come out. Even though I want to berserk inside this bus, I would just disturb the passengers or I would be kicked out. I don't want that to happen. Taking the risk by making a choice could be sometimes helpless. If you're alone and you got nobody behind your back, you're in danger. You're in deep danger.
Then I stared out the window. The transition of every place is what I witnessed. I hadn't noticed that someone had sat down beside me.
"Why so sad?" My body suddenly jumped because of the voice I heard. He was smiling at me. At first I thought he was a super cool rock star because of his charming face but I pushed the thought away. His shiny black hair with some spikes at the side fits him to his fullest. He was wearing completely casual clothes. Though I was bothered why he was wearing some sunglasses.
