it started the day you left
the feeling
that feeling
the feeling of nothing at all
nothing
just numb
you said you loved me
you lied
i thought you'd be different
you disappointed me
you said you'd help me
instead you made things worse
much worse
i trusted you
i hid nothing
you saw the pain
you saw the sadness
you saw the hurt
yet you still left
when i showed that night
why did you cry
you were supposed to be strong
i was the broken one
not you
you were my hero
not anymore
when you showed me your scars
i cried
you weren't as strong as i thought
you were stronger
how could you leave
the note wasn't enough
if you had really loved me
you wouldn't have left
not now
when i was weak
i needed you
maybe it was a mistake
maybe you didn't mean to go
perhaps you're waiting up there for me
with your crooked smile and messy hair
i tried to get to you i swear
i tried
they found me there
the pills in my hand
i tried to leave but it didn't work
this time they won't wake me
i'm coming baby
