Knowing I Can't Have You (#PerfectDate)

Knowing I Can't Have You

My dearest crush,

If I were able to I would want my perfect date to be with you, knowing that I feel loved and knowing that you'd want to take things slow and wait for me. My perfect date with you would just be a traditional yet romantic and fun night like a nice dinner or going to the beach and walking together with the sand in between our feet. I don't know how but somehow I feel drawn to you, almost as if I'm being sucked into a whirlpool.

There are times in which I feel as if we belong to one another because of a strong bond you and I have regardless of you not even knowing I exist. I don't know but there are times in which you and I have the same trait and act the same way in certain situations, maybe I'm just imagining things in my mind though. You somehow effect me as well, whenever you feel sad I get sad as well knowing that you feel the same way, every time I see your sad face I want to make things right again to make you happy once more and see you smiling again. But I can't. I can't come to you and make you feel happy again and because of your position, all I can do is hope for you to return to normal and smile when you do in the distance.

One of the things that you do in which I can't seem to stand is when you smile! Your smile is like an arrow ready to release into my heart, and once it does, I can't seem to breathe anymore because of how cute you look! I love the way how you laugh, how you look when you're trying to concentrate, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I love everything about you.

I know this is an impossible thing to happen, but if I were to share my feelings with you when nothing is standing in our way, I would have a hard time trying to tell you my feelings. Even if I did tell you that I love you, I would still feel like I haven't said enough to let it all go through your heart. I know there are a lot of people saying the same words to you as well, but for me it's different than just that or something just to get your attention. It's how I truly feel towards you.

I guess the short version of this is... I love you with all of my heart. But knowing that I'll never be able to get the chance to tell you this in person and knowing that we'll never be able to reach each other no matter how close we seem to be breaks my heart. All that I do ask is for your happiness and wish that you'll be with someone who makes you so.

Because I know I can't have you.