Chapter Thirty Four
DI NYA alam kung pano sya nakauwi ng maayos kagabi. Basta nagising nalang sya kinabukasan na tanghali na at namamaga ang mata nya dahil sa kakaiyak kagabi. Dahil sa naalala ay tumulo na naman ang luha nya, na agad rin nyang pinunasan.
‘I should not look like a mess, while they are happy!’ paalala nya sa sarili.
Naligo at nag ayos muna sya bago lumabas ng kwarto. Nilagyan pa nya ng concealer ang eyebags bya kahit halata naman na umiyak sya dahil sa pamamaga nito. Alas dies na ng umaga kaya tahimik ang bahay. Nagpunta nalang sya sa kusina para kumain.
Tahimik lang syang kumakain ng narinig nyang may nagdoorbell. Nakita nya si Yna na nasa may pool ito kaya nagpasya nalang syang sya ang magbubukas ng gate. Uminum muna sya ng tubig bago lumabas ng bahay.
Bago paman sya makalapit sa gate ay nabuksan na pala ito ni Nanay Lucy at pinapasok si Allen.
Wearing a black polo shirt and a jeans, Allen looked handsomely mess while holding a bouquet of flower. Ayaw man nyang aminin sa sarili pero sobrang sumakit ang dibdib nya makita lang ito.
“Thank you po, Nanay Lucy ” magalang na pasalamat nito kay Nay Lucy bago ito umalis.
She's just remained standing. Staring at him like I was just normally looking at him. Like he never cheated on me. Like he was never hurt me last night.
“Eve, I'm sorry ” paunang sabi nito at lumapit sa kanya, but I stepped back. He looked shock because of my sudden reaction. Kitang kita sa mata ni Allen ang pagka bigla dahil sa ginawa ko.
It hurts me. It hurt seeing him now. It remind me what I saw last night. He cheated on me!
“What are you sorry for?” she coldly asked.
I saw in his eyes that he's hesitating for something, that we both know if what is it.
“Please, I'm sorry, baby” pumungay ang mga mata nitong naka titig sa kanya. His blueish eyes that supposedly my favorite asset of him. Now, I saw how it hurts me.
“You're sorry for what I saw last night. Aren't you?” alam nyang yon ang dahilan kung bakit ito nandito. Yumuko lang ito sa kanya. Pinipilit nyang wag manginig ang boses nya dahil sa sakit na naramdaman.
Ano pa ang ibang dahilan kung bakit ka nasasaktan? Is it because I believed in him? Because I loved him? That I have trusted him?
Sa loob ng halos isang taon nilang relasyon, di nya naisip na mangyayari to sa kanila. I have loved him so much like what he showed me. Like what he made me feel. I love him so much, to the point that I gave everything I have to him. But why is this happening?
“I hated you for that Allen. I have trusted you. I have loved you. But look what you did, you cheated on me! You made me believe in all of your lies. That's fully bullshit!” galit na saad nya rito.
Nagsisimula na ring mamuo ang luha sa mata nya. Huminga sya ng malalim dahil sa galit nya. Di narin nya maiwasang wag manginig ang boses nya.
“Please, baby, I'm sorry. I did not mean to do it. . . . Please.” nagsusumamo ang boses nito habang naka titig sa kanya.
Looking at him right now made my heart ache more.
My heart beats so fast, not because I feel great, but because it hurts. I am definitely hurt.
I swallowed the bile in my throat to breath properly. I felt like I am going to be suffocated because of what I have feel.
“I thought you'll never hurt me. Akala ko di mo ako magagawang lokohin. Akala ko sapat na ako sayo. . . . . Akala ko. . pero nagkamali ako.” she paused and breath. Nagsisimula ng bumagsak ang luha sa mata nya. “You know what? . .medyo nakakapagsisi na minahal kita.” tsaka sya tuluyang hinayaan ang sariling umiyak.
“Please, baby I'm sorry. . . . I'm so sorry, baby. . . I'm so sorry” paulit ulit na hingi nito ng tawad sa kanya.
Umaamba itong hawakan sya, pero umiilag sya. Sobrang sakit eh.
“You broke me. You destroyed me. I'm shattered. I feel like . . . .like I'm trying to run from something I can't escape, because it's in my memory” umiiyak na saad nya. “The way how you kissed her last night keep on playing on my mind!” singhal nya rito.
Pinahiran nya ang luha kahit patuloy parin ang mga ito sa pagtulo. Nasasaktan akong makita ang lalaking mahal ko sa harap ko, na humihingi mg tawad, na guilty sa isang maling bagay na nagawa.
“Am I not enough, Allen?”
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