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3/10/2019

(So sorry! I was grounded for a while... I plagiarized a history assignment. Gosh... I have been extremely stressed recently... So please forgive me for skipping a few days on my "Blog Posts.")

(Also... Trigger/Depression warning!!!)

Ok honesty time.... I have been cutting myself... Jeez that was harder to type than I expected.

I started cutting myself about three days ago... it started with minor not very deep scratches... like not even deep enough to bleed. As I got more and more stressed I cut deeper. 

Yesterday I got called a little bitch who nobody loves. It broke me to pieces... I ran in the school bathroom and got out my razor and started cutting myself... I ended cutting that entire sentence into my arm. I wore my jacket the rest of the day.

To be honest nothing happy has happened for the entire week. I can't find anything to laugh at or laugh at all... Even funny cat videos fail to make me laugh... I sit in my dark room most of the day and listen to Twentyonepiolets or Imagine Dragons. 

At tops I'm getting about 2 1/2 hours of sleep per night and it's starting to take its toll on me. 

Even my piano music that I create (Which is usually happy) is highly depressing.

(Anyway... that's enough depression for you! *sigh* Like always: Stay Awesome Stay Happy and NEVER let anyone bring you down! Kayla out!)