Goodbye [oneshot]

I'll miss you

Dear A,

It's too late now, I know it is, but I can't bear to leave this world without you knowing how I feel.  It's been 7 years since I like you. It was love at first sight, but I didn't start loving you because you looked cute, I started loving you because you were the only one buried in a book in the day of the field trip. I found it adorable and felt my heart beat faster when you looked up at me. We finally talked in 6th grade, and I can't tell you how much I loved it. I loved how everyone started shipping us in 5th grade, we both said how gay and weird it was but it really wasn't. For me, it was amazing. You always had the softest skin. I remember when you accidentally grazed your hand on mine that one day. It was so soft and I soon became addicted to being close to you. 

You grew up and changed. I still loved you, but you became like all the other girls. I remember you coming to me after every breakup, asking me for comfort. You came to me, telling me how they broke your heart, but you didn't realize that with all of this, you only broke my heart. You came to me, saying how you got a new boyfriend, you told me that this one was going to last, and said that you two had the most perfect date. That night, all I thought about was our perfect date. 

We would go to a restaurant and then get ice cream, obviously. We would go to the beach next. You always told me how much you loved going to the beach and not doing anything. You would take off your shoes, grab my hand and give me that look. You would drag me to the sand and we would run through the whole beach, laughing for no reason whatsoever. We would get exhausted, and fall onto the sand, not caring about anything in the world and only focusing on each other. There would be that moment where we look into each other eyes and lean in. Your soft, plump lips would touch mine and all my worries would go away. We would hold hands, looking up at the star-filled sky. There would be a comfortable silence over us. I would look over at you and see you sleeping. I would easily pick you up, and piggyback you to your house. I dream that we could end up like this, but we can't. In this world that we live in, a relationship like ours could never work. 

You told me that you don't love me and that you don't care, I hope that you will be happy without me, I know that this relationship you have will last. 

 You told me to leave, so goodbye A, I'll miss you.

                                                                                                                                            I will always love you, B

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