How Broken Am I ?

Eat less than you can

Some recognized voice woke me up from sleep.I opened my eyes and rubbed to get clear vision.Yes I guess it right.Its Subi and Arjun. They were seriously discussing something to the doctor.

"Good morning Sitara" doctor checked my pulse."Good morning doctor"I replied.

"Your fasting period is over,you can eat starting from now."This words really made me happy after all I met in accident when I was in hungry.I terrible need food now.

I looked at Subi knowing she would have prepared food for me.

"Subi,give me the food.I am damn hungry". I said without even bothering Arjun's presence.

"Here you go,a warm rice porridge just for you baby."Subi took the round blue container labelled Tupperware out from her bag.

I gave her one weird look mixed with anger.

"Dont play Subi,quick take out my meal."

Arjun and doctor turned to look at me and Subi.

"What Tara?" Arjun asked.

"Look,Jun she is giving me porridge.Ask her not to play."

Jun looked at doctor for a second.Doctor then speak out "Tara because we have removed your spleen you cant eat alot.And you have to test the food first and see which suits you and you can gradually increase your food.But Im very sure you cant eat alot because you have less digestion power now."Doctor explained.

"What?" I shouted. "Auuhhh,pain".Opps forgot about my abdomen pain for a second because they say I cant eat what I like right now.

"Okay give me that porridge Subi". I hardly took one spoon and feed myself.It was so hard to swallow it not only because I was in pain also because the porridge taste horrible.

I forced myself to finish eat because Arjun and Subi was literally killing me to do it so I just followed their words.

"Subi will take care of your needs today at the hospital,and I will go to your college to inform and apply leave.Will come for lunch.Bye Subs".He waved and looked at me.He kept his look straight to me and said "Take care".

I smiled and said ok.

"Look like my long lost friend fallen for you' Subi teased me.

"Hey nothing like that,he is just helping me.Don't try to create your own imagination.I replied.I know Arjun is too handsome for me.

"What is so less in you for you to think like that".Subi shows her disagreement.

"Avan epdi irukanu parthiya? (Did you noticed his looks). He is too good for me Subi.".

Subi gave a angry look.She took the mirror and placed in front of me.

"Look! Your dark bown eyes with little long lashes , your not sharp but pointed nose , a lips just perfect in shape, that fair but little tanned skin.Just a perfect indian girl you are.

For a second I was amazed by friend's words.She have never said something like this in this three years.

"Okay okay Subi.I look good." I laughed."But I cant expect Arjun to like me just because of this features."I added my opinion.

"Ya,you are right thats why he paid for your operation 30k".She pouted her lips in disappintment.

"What?" I was shocked.I swallowed my saliva."Arjun paid for me?" But why?

He has to do that?"I asked question by question.

"I don't know,ask yourself Tara.I'll be back in minutes.Take rest".Subi opened the door,waved bye to me.

I was still in shock.Why this man have to pay for me.From choosing ice cream,to saving and now for paying my hospital fees.I kept pondering at my white bed with my lost thoughts.

I looked at the wall clock it shows 11.40am.Did I forget something? Oh shit.I tapped my forehead with my palm.I quickly reached my handphone.

Checked my inbox.All messages are seen but no reply.

Dhi,I know you are angry with me but

Please

Listen I just said I saw him in real life.

A thumbs up popped.

Dhii....talk.

Message again seen.My eyes are slightly gathering a little water.I never knew if Aadhi don't talk it can make me feel worse.

Dhi my lower abdomen is so painful.And if you don't talk to me it makes me to feel more painful.

Take care.Take your tablets,Get a good rest.Gotta go.

I was so sad to see such a reply from him.I know I hurt his feelings but then why he treating me like this.I keep on thinking how can I make him better back but I couldn't find a solution.I was again went to scroll his timeline to check his post.And found a new post

I'm done!

My heart panicked right that moment.I wanted to react to him but Subi came into the room.I pretend nothing to her.

"Why is it your face looks like this?"