Can You Ever Love Me? A Niam fanfic

Chapter Seven

When I awoke I felt refreshed and way better than I had yesterday. I pulled my duvet cover off me and slid out of bed. I decided to have a shower before I went down stairs to see who was there. I sluggishly  made my way to the bathroom, still half asleep. I turned on the shower and then started stripping off my clothes which I had slept in the night before. I jumped into the shower letting the warm water stream over my naked body. As the steam rose around me I let my thoughts take me to the events that had happened in the last few days. 

Zayn knew I loved Niall. It was kind of scary knowing that someone else knew. It meant that it was real. That I really was in love with Niall. Ofcourse I knew I was in love with him all this time but telling somone made it even more real and scary. I knew my heart would get broken but I loved him anyway. What am I saying, my heart had already been broken. Niall had a girlfriend. I could never compete with any girl he had. Why couldn't I just be straight. Things would be so much easier. Or why couldn't I have just been born a girl. Then I might have actually had a chance with him.

I turned off the shower and stepped onto the white mat, grabbing a towel as I did so. I quickly dried myself off and wrapped the towel around my waist and tucking it in so it wouldn't fall off. I walked back into my room and looked through my drawers for something to wear. I got a pair of dark denim skinny jeans and a plain white top. I got into them quickly and then made my way down the hallway into the lounge. I had no idea if the boys were here, I was hoping they wern't. I needed a day where I could just sit at home being lazy, eating chocolate and watching tv. I wasn't so lucky.

As I got closer to the lounge I could hear the loud hum of the tv. I walked through the doorway and saw a familiar head of blonde hair. Niall jumped a little as he heard me come in but then a smile crossed his face when he saw it was me. 

"Mornin Li!" He greeted in his cute Irish accent. 

"Morning." I said back forcing a smile on my face. "I didn't think anyone was going to be here."

'Oh yeah, I stayed last night, but all the boys left. I hope that's okay. I wanted to make sure you were alright." he said slowly.

"Yeah of course thats fine Ni! And I am good now, I guess I was just tired and needed a good sleep." I replied trying to sound happy that he was here.

"Um Li..I need to talk to you about something." he said awkwardly.

"Okay. Talk to me about whatever over breakfast." I said walking towards the kitchen. I didn't realise how starving I was untill now. I hadn't eaten anything since lunch time yesterday. 

I switched the kettle on and then went to the pantry and got some bread for toast. 

"So what's it you want to talk to me about?" I asked turning around to face Niall who had followed me in.

"Do you like Skye? It's just yesterday when I properly introduced her you didn't even talk to her and then you went up to your room." He said in a rush. A look of guilt flashed across his face as he said those words. Like he was lieing. Why would he lie about Skye? He wouldn't I'm sure.

I was quite for a moment trying to think of a response. Of course I couldn't tell him that I didn't like her. How could I?

I let out a small laugh at the worried expression on his face. "She is lovely Ni, of course I like her. It's just you know I have been feeling home sick lately and I just wasn't up for talking." I lied.  I hated lieing. But I couldn't tell him that I thought they didn't suit each other at all, and he would be much better with me. 

"Oh good." He said sighing in relief. "I really like her Li, I know we got together really fast but she is really nice and I really like her."

My heart fully broke into a million peices right then. He really likes her.