KPOP MEMES

Stress Level: Mork Lee

Hey guys

(Very long post ahead, I will appreciate it if you take the time to read)

So I know I haven't been updating this book at all lately and it's mostly because of everything happening at my school. Yesterday, which of course was a Monday, the worst day of all, was actually one of the worst days of my whole life. People—including my own friends, were being rude and hostile towards me, and at some moments, were even pushing into me or trying to shoulder check me. Hell, I even got slapped with a glove during track practice outside. Now maybe I'm being to damn sensitive, but I know myself well enough to know that I can take jokes and shit. But when I get told that I'm dumb by my friends, or I'm being a bully because I'm stressed and having a rough day, or I'm the "weird one" because I don't like a boy who likes me back, or that I'm fat and that I should go on a diet from my mom, or just rude sarcastic tones towards me, I just can't fucking take it anymore. On top of that, I got loads of friends who for some odd reason love physical contact and joke around a lot. So when I deal with the shit I said before, PLUS me now getting pushed and basically hit by someone when I'm literally just trying to do what I'm supposed to do, obviously I'm not gonna be okay. That isn't all that happened though. If you don't know, I'm part of the paint/scenery crew of musical, and this year we have been severely understaffed. Currently, we only have four people who are actually in paint crew. One of the teachers, my best friend, me, and an 8th grader. However, the teacher in the crew is busy doing cast stuff, while my best friend is in the cast as a chorus member. That leaves me and an 8th grader who doesn't know what to do. Now on most days of musical, I have to leave early because my parents are strict and don't want me to stay at school until 10pm. So that leaves the 8th grader to do clean up because I typically leave at 7 pm. Long story short, she doesn't do shit and all of our brushes and tools turned into crap. So that whole paint day was absolute shit and we couldn't get anything done because all of our materials were messed up and opening night of the musical is Friday, so in four days. But now I have another thing to share. I won't give true names, but lets call this girl Angel. On Monday, March 12th, 2019, around 3:45 pm, we lost Angel through a deadly gunshot that went through her chest. This same girl was in my class/grade and sat right next to me in Biology. Now was I ever close to her? No. But this is devastating and tragic, and I'm still shaken from the situation. To most other students in my school, they would think of Angel as a rude bully, but Angel was always nice and considerate towards me. A good deal amount of students in my school believed that her murder was justified and that she deserved it. No child deserves to fucking die. I'm deeply disgusted by my fellow peers and I wish that they had been more open-minded.

Rest In Peace Angel, the Class of 2021 will deeply miss you.