My lost Piece

Last letter

Please note that English is not my first language and this is my first try, I hope it goes well. Kindly point out any mistake and I'll be grateful.

Up is the cover made be me ❤️!

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Julian

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"I love you."

You kept saying every day. Maybe you were trying to make me believe you, maybe you were trying to make your self believe, it doesn't really matter right now.

You seemed to find it funny whenever I complained about you saying it a lot. You knew I was against it. I've always believed saying it a lot will take the magic away, it will become another normal phrase like how are you, something you just get used to saying even though you don't mean it, it gets habitual, and I didn't like that. I wanted it to have the same effect every time I hear it, that feeling like flying where your feet are not in the ground, it gets you high on happiness.

And here I am thinking, did you do it on purpose? Was you planning this for a long time? I can't defend you anymore.

I knew you wanted me to shower you with I love you's every second of the day, but that's not me, Hailey, and we both know that. But I did say it with my actions, you just never payed it much attention.

Every time you came running to my house sobbing I held you silently, not asking questions, that was me showing love.

Waking up early every day to get you the Chocolate Frappuccino and the cookies, so you can start your day smiling. That was love.

The little notes I slipped into your pocket everyday.

Holding your hand every time your parents start another fight and making an excuse to get you out of there as soon as possible.

I learned how to make a cake because you once complained about it being along time since you last ate a home made cake. And I ended up baking one every year so we can celebrate your birthday together happily.

My six pm alarm that rings every night reminding me to send you a new song.

Me having to take a lot of pictures, even though I hate it, whenever I'm traveling so you don't feel alone.

That was me showing love, sadly you didn't know there was more than one way to say it, and you just ignored all of this. I'm not regretting any penny I spent on you, Ley, but I do regret the effort I put into this relationship, I gave you more than I gave anybody and you threw it all away without even blinking. That hurt.

Remember when you refused to speak to me for like three days? You gave me the cold shoulder for no reason. God I was so pissed, but you came telling me the reason, and all of the anger just vanished when your tears fell.

"I-I" She took a deep breath trying to calm her self. "I'm afraid, Leo. Every time I look at you I just— I can't help but think, do you love me as much as I love you? How long before you stop loving me and find your self — someone else?"

"God, baby. Of course I love you. You are the light of my life, and you have nothing to worry about you are the only girl I see and I don't see my self falling out of love with you ever."

I started trying hard after that happened to make you believe my words, I was a man who loved to prove his words, and you knew that. I now think you did all of that on purpose. Every moment we have is now filled with doubts. You ruined everything for me.