Big Bang Preferences (On Hold)

O7: Song Preference// Jealous by labyrinth

I love this song sm. I don't remember who told me about this song but I love it so much.

TOP:

"I'm jealous of the nights that I don't spend with you. I'm wondering who you lay next to."

He took a drag of his cigarette as he looked out at the Seoul skyline. It's been months since you left. He thought that you would have been the one torn up about it but he was wrong. He missed you. He didn't comprehend at the time how much he truly loved and needed you. He heard you changed your number  and had moved on to another idol. He's couldn't remember which one but whoever it was, he was a lucky bastard. While he didn't remember who it was, he couldn't help but wonder who you were with and sleeping with. Just like how you both used too.

Taeyang:

"I wished you the best of all this world could give."

It has been about two years since you broke up. The way you broke up was mutual and there was no pain involved. You both wished one another the best that the world would permit. You both found someone new and were happy. Or at least he was. He heard through the grapevine that you were not doing good. He heard that you were depressed and struggling with your husband. His heart broke for you. He wanted you to have the best, and it seemed like it was not.

G-Dragon:

"It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way that you're happy without me."

It was really hard when he saw on social media how happy you were. You were smiling, laughing, and just so happy. On top of the he discovered you were with another man. A man that would hopefully give you everything that he couldn't. He once was able to do that, but he just couldn't cause you pain from dating an idol. As he looked at your page, he started to grow jealous. Not because of the man, but of the fact that you were happy without him.

Daesung:

"Oh as I die here another day, cause all I do is cry behind this smile."

He was known for smiling and being happy. When you left him, he knew that he had to keep up the image even if he was dying inside. That was unfortunately one of the downfalls of being an idol. As he smiled in photographs, in variety shows, and during promotions; he held the pain and heartache that was in his heart. When he was home alone, he would cry into open bottles. Sometimes he'd allow his members to come over since only they knew how he was feeling.

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3 more to go until I hold the book. :'(
I know it's my choice but it still makes me super sad..