If I Were A Boy

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I decided to do another songfic from another perspective. Again, I got the idea from The Script and I don't own anything 

Hope you enjoy! Thanks for reading! :)

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 Am I better off dead

I think I should die.

After all those horrible things I did to her, there's no redemption.

Am I better off a quitter

They say I'm better off now

Then I ever was with her

"Forget about her, man. You guys are done," Jacob said sympathetically, trying to remove the bottle of Jack Daniels from my hands. I moved it away quickly, with a lazy grin on my face. Me and this bottle have a date to have.

"Look," he sighed,"if you keep doing this, you're just going to destroy your own life. You haven't been over her for six months, man. Move on." 

"Ah, shut up, shut up, I'm feeling light-headed," I slurred, drinking the bottle down.

I'll never forget someone like her.

As they take me to my local down the street

I'm smiling but I'm dying trying not to drag my feet

"Woah there Peter, try not to pass out until we get there," said Billy as he dragged me across the car.  I only laughed and held the bottle close to me.  I guess a couple of bottles are still not enough to knock me out. I usually pass out at this stage, but this time I need something stronger.

"...hey, let's go back," I murmured, trying to stand up, but I felt like the ground was unstable. Billy caught me in time before I fell on my ass.

"Christ Peter, you can't even stand up properly," he said shaking his head. Jacob scoffed unlocked the car.

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her

But after one too many I know that I'm never

"Geez, I said just a couple of drinks just to relax you, but no, you just had to drink a lot," Jacob scratched his head in frustration.

"Trust me, I need more than this," I shrugged, slightly feeling dizzy with all the buzzing around me. Everything is just too loud, I just need silence. Just to stop all the thinking, all the flashbacks.

All of her. I just need to stop thinking all the time about her.

Only they can't see where this is gonna end

But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

As I sit in the car, I looked out the window. All this pouring rain reminded of when she treated me when I was sick during a rainy day.

Damn it! I'm still thinking about all those times!

Shaking them out of my thoughts, I looked out the window until...

..Until I saw her. Walking down the street. I can clearly see her as day, with her curls and her red umbrella, looking as beautiful as ever.

"Stop the car!" I yelled, kicking at the driver's seat. Billy was startled from his seat and looked at me in shock.

Jacob turned around angrily, "What the hell is your problem?"'

"Stop the car Jacob! Stop the damn car!" I yelled, slamming the bottle of Jack Daniels on the floor. They both stared at me, open mouthed.