I love you...but why don't you love me..? (Male YandereXReader)

Chapter Five: Love me, like I do you

(Y/N) POV

I was on the bed naked as Gray held me down from above...i want this...but no i can't... he is about to kiss me when i turn my head and shut my eyes expecting him to attempt to hit me, but instead i can hear his head tilt. "You're not ready...are you my love..." he asked almost too serious, but i nodded in embarrassment. He got off me almost immediately when i nodded "then...we shall wait..." he grabbed my clothes and put them on my bed
(Y/N): "c-can i ask though...gray..."
He seemed to snap his head in my direction when i said his name. "Yes darling????" He scurried onto the bed nearly in front of me "did you change your mind????" He was about to rip my clothes off
(Y/N) : "no...what did you do....with that boy...they said...when they found his body....he was missing his thigh, liver...and kidneys..."
He turn away and chuckles, god...that chuckle...if you didn't know he was a psychopath...you'd fall in love just when he laughs...."i ate them"
he grins goofily, but i...i throw up... "you know roasted thigh in clay makes a very delicious feist, especially for fellow friends....alas i ate it alone, his liver, well grill that in individual sliced while it's soaked in olive oil? Mwah master piece right there, almost like grilled pork, and his kidney....well...i saved those for a special occasion~" he pointed at my food when i saw it had some type of meat in it...i was too hungry to notice....oh god....oh god! I threw up more and more and was shaking almost violently while breathing heavily...
(Y/N) "why....gray...why did you make me eat him"
"I didn't, you ate him yourself. I was going to tell you, but you ate too fast i just couldn't" he says with a smirk
(Y/N) "but...it tasted...almost....delicious...w-why..?"
"I added some ingredients making it almost indistinguishable from chorizo, which honestly, is my favorite thing to eat"
I was groaning and look around in horror. Is this where i end up for the rest of my life...? No...i have to find a way to get out...i'll earn his trust..yeah...that's it...
(Y/N) "ok gray...you win...it was...delicious" once i said that his face lit up and he smiled a toothy smile, which revealed he had fangs of sorts....almost...like the wendigo...oh god please no...now i really have to get out of here! "Wonderful, yes wonderful!" He danced around like a mad doctor who created life for the first time... "oh yes such a wonderful time to fest~" he was singing now "a wonderful time to feed the beast~" it sounds like a lullab- wait what. "The beast shall eat and the beauty shall dance, the pair shall wed and hap-pi-ly bbbeeeeeeeed~" oh my god he's more insane than i thought, he looked at me "The beauty and the beast shall wed toniiiiight~"...you have to give him props though. He can sing. He looked at me and picked me up and spun me around, happily, i had to act just as happy, so i giggle and laughed and nuzzled into his neck as he spun me around. I needed for him to think i was finally coming around, i need him to trust me...after he finishes spinning me around he kisses me deeply, i have to submit for him to believe me and let me have some freedom.